pengesahan dalam perkhidmatan....

that's been written on the letter i accepted from the office...

with a smile on my face.. i announced proudly "jyyeaaHHh dah sah jawatan...da bley lawan boss" wakakakkaka...

my colleague continue. " dakwat dAh kering weh.." ...

meaning there's no need to put my face down when facing boss..huhu.. i can speak out loud now.. i can speak up my opinion,... i can further my study.. and i can....... being transfered!.. huh daymn!

"BERKHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA"

Yana Harmila Haron.

huhu.....

on the move..!!~ again..??

after bali ... mersing.. KL... now i'm off to Klantan and trengganu .... hahaha

with couple of rm50 notes i'm off for another trip.. but this time.. shopping is out of my list lor..

couple of rm50 notes aren't enough for me to do shopping..huk..

the worse part is..... i'm officially broke.. daymNN... where the heck can i get instant cash for bandung/jakarta trip...?? can't ask my mom for 'buat ada-ada' money this time.. coz mom herself will be joining the trip and so do my 2 youngest bro n sis... which officially meant that... "you're on ur own Yana HarmiLa!!~" daYmMNnnnnn again...!!~

i already counting my coins .. and still figure out where the heck i'm gonna trade this coins into rm notes.. at least there will be another 2 extra rm50 notes in my wallet..huhu

pathetic isn't it...??

but i don't care... i wanna go jalan-jalan puas-puas tahun ni.. don't know why.. but i think i can smell next year will be a difficult year for me... huh...

Lalalalala.........!!!~ [tiada rahsia di BaLi...!!~]

it's been a quite some times since i last rambling here..
sangat tdak ade mood utk merapu..

it's a school holiday now.. and it's already started with a short visit to sg congkak for a photo-gathering a day before a wonderful holiday trip to bali with my sepang heroes... i'm thinking of start rambling again.. i'll try to spend couple of minutes rambling before signing in my facebook and yahoo messenger... (said "i'll try"... try meant "cuba" ok??..huhuh)

Last week i when for a trip to the wonderful island of Bali with my sepang heroes, Joe, Amin, Arul, Helmi and FadhiL (well fadhil is not exactly a sepang heroes but he can be anything babes.. a barong and hanuman also can..huhu).. it's my 1st time meeting helmi and arul but they're cool... seems like all of us been a close friends for ages although we're only meet up for couple of times..sangat bley masuk kepala... the trip can be categorized as a succesful trip since everyone seems satisfied with the well-plan iteanary...(credit for my aunt who get us the best tourist guide in Bali...i guess..hehe)..

i when to Bali with the intention to have fun.. unlike my sepang heroes... they when there for photo hunt!...so i don't give a damn of getting the best photo i could actually get there.. with one unit of my lovely munchkin, nikon attach to 18-55 f3.5-5.6 and 70-300 f4-5.6 as standby and a unit of canon 1D mk II (a generous someone lend me this unit and i need to explore it in 4 days) attached to 15mm fish eye and 24-70 f2.8 waiting to be use... i produced a rubbish... everyone even mom, b and aunts said that my pix are rubbish... they put a higher expectation on me... but all they see are rubbish... feeling frustrated with myself.. i put away my external harddisk and start grabbing a novel that i haven't finish reading since last year..hahaha.. untill the time i'm writing this article.. i haven't even finish reading one page..haha.. i open up the novel..then close it.. i stare at my external hdd.. thinking of uploading my pix... then i lost interest...i'm browsing my facebook... then i ignoring it... daymnnn i really started to feel the frustration... if only i could turn back time .. i probably gonna capture as much pix i could with my munchkin... my tiny d40x.. feel bad ..really bad.. coz that generous someone lend me his camera and expecting an eye-catching pix from his 1D mk II... all i gave him was a rubbish.. i wasted his shutter released for nothing.. sgt teruk kan?? i even drop his battery pack.. x psal2 cacat battery beliau.. i'm sucks!!~

i hope i could do better in jakarta-bandung this 18-21 dec.. (got a family trip there with mom, aish and uya + aunts and cousins...) i'll try to capture better pix there lor...but............ bandung is a shopping heaven....i wanna go shopping lor....how come?? shopping and photo-hunt can't mix lor..huhu..owh forgot... i suddah sengkek.. cannot go shopping anymore :'( ....

before bandung-jakarta trip there will be a mersing holiday gathering with my ippm bff.. and a klantan - trengganu trip sponsored by my school..(sponsor tambang je pun..yang laen sendri gak...huh).. harap2 smua plan jadik lah.. aiyo.. i need lots of money right now..!!!~ any ideas of getting an instant money??? urgent reply needed!!~ hahaha..


extra note :

today i get a surprise visit from someone.. i thought it's was a joke when he said he's coming to have lunch with me.. so i'm ignoring him.. by the time i'm buying his invitation he's already waiting in front of my house... poor him, he need to wait more than half an hours (i guess) for me to have shower and getting ready..wkakakaka..amaran keras to all my friends.. len kali x yah lah surprise2 kalau xmo menunggu... hahaha.. thanx babes for the lunch..!


p/s: napa aq rasa rapuan aku kali berterabur??? hahaha

10 sebab knapa sy x suka inchek...

10 things i hate about you

1 . i hate the way you talk to me and the way u cut your hair

2 . i hate the way you drive my car (i mean ur car)

3 . i hate it when you stare

4 . i hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind

5 . i hate you so much it makes me sick it even makes me run

6 . i hate the way you’re always right

7 . i hate it when you LIE

8 . i hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry

9 . i hate it when you’re not around and the fact that you didn’t call

10 . but mostly i hate the way i don’t hate you not even close... not even a little bit.. not even at all....

29 !!~

HaPpy burfDay To me! :'(

happy kah aku?
sedey kah?
don't what to feel..
don't know what to do..
munchkin ..where r u...


[tq for everything (-_-')]

the worst day after 9 years...

from now on untill i recover...(again? which used to take 8 years before) u'll read my crappy mind translated in words..

The theme was "emotional dysfunction".. majoring in "broken hearted days before my birthday".. a perfect gift for an old lady like me huh? hahaha

earlier today i meant to write about something else.. but before i could actually write it, i get a major nerves breakdown due to my silliness... my intention to improve the relation that i'm into.. the gut i get of being honest and straight to the point was misunderstood i guess.. the good part was drown by the bad thing i did to get the prove... haha..and the other side was never want to sit back and discuss it over..

dear.. didn't i'm the one who supposed to get upset more than u do? why did u make this looks like i'm guiltier than u? ...

to be continue... the hand was too shaky to write...have to wipe out the bleed on my heart first i guess...huh..

wo ai ta.. sangat!
sangat upset!

-bLanK-

SerabooT? just like me! haha
straight from camera.. too misearable to edit this!

Rendu...
to whom?
or to what?
can't tell!
not yet to be told!

miss the old days...
what about nowadays?
changed?
don't know!
seem like it!

Rendu lagi..
is it mutual?
wasn't it?
erk... it is dulu!
but now.. didn't know!



(-_-')
guo nian. xian sheng.

Monday BLueS..!!!~

aku sangat malas mau kerja esok...

seriously i'm not in the mood to start working after about 2 weeks hanging around doing nothing..
2 weeks of holiday should be enough for me to refresh myself... but i never did..
true .. i'm not doing my official job..i'm resting from working... but my mind didn't...
it seem like my mind won't let my brain from taking the holiday...
i've been doing lots of thinking recently.. don't ask me what did i think about..
i didn't know how to answer that!!~
maybe i need a proper vacation where i spent my time alone peacefully in an island maybe?? haha


i'm counting days for the next school break...mwakakkaka..

My BuddieS anD I..!!~
-={LurvE Ya...}=-

haPpy FatheR's day ..!!~

abah..
i never had the chance to
confess that i lurve you...
but i want u to know that i do..
happy father's day abah...

-[with lurve]-
uYa, aiSH, Uda, aBanG, Yan



P/s: to all the fathers and father's to be... happY father's day buddies !!!~..
{smuga jadi aYah YanG TerbaeK buat sahaBaT-sahabaT ku!!~}

p/p/s: sLamat hari bapa inchek... may aLL the happiness be with You!!~ (-_-')

Dedicated To.. [You Know who You aRE..!!~]

wake up and Figure out something..
don't let thing hanging just like that..
stop playing around.. you're not a teenager anymore..
you may not realized that someone is hurt because of u..
don't act like nothing goes wrong..
that's not good dear..
don't simply take everything as easy as ur abnormal life..
wake up and be normal...
people smiling at u doesn't meant they like u...
people laughing with u doesn't meant that they're laughing inside too..
they just wanna you to be happy..
don't just think of ur own self...
think of other people too..
wake up and try to change...!!~


p/s: May all The HappineSS be WiTh You...

aRggGGggGHHHHH !!~

this is what happen when u have to do someone else work..
delay..delay... delay..
sangat x ikhlas..
and it'll end up by paying someone else to finish it up for u..hahaha




sorry areteam.. terpaksa susahkan ko.. aku sangat..sangat xde mood nak buat data entry ni..hehe
i'll pay u later ya..huhu

so LittLe Time so MucH To Do...!!!~

I have Lot's of work to be done..
as usual.. i'm delaying my work... haha
i'm always like that...
whenever i got lots of works to be done.. i'm delaying...
what's the exact word huh?? Procrastinating??
whatever..
instead of finishing my works.. i'm blogging?? hahaha..

a day before my lips turn scary..huhu

playing with photoscapes

aKoE seDeY..!!~

don't know why..
out of nowhere i'm a little bit sad lately.. i guess...
my heart is crying out.... the tears try to get out but i prevent it so hard from falling ..
the expression are unpredictable..
one minute i came out with a happy face....
one minute later i was like eating 100Kg of tamarind...
another minute i was like no emotion...
don't know what am I thinking but i'm sure i don't like those feeling...
feel like crying but forcing myself not to...
kinda tired from having those feeling.. it makes me looks stupid...
give me haedache that force me to take paracetamol to reduce it....
but still i don't know what to do..

BenChinTa bY FaizaL Tahir !!~

Out of no where aku teringat kan lagu ni.. yes.. memang aku tengah saket skang ni (i never confess..and never admit this before..).. and this song is something to desribe me right now..i guess... wakakaka sangat tidak boley blah punya statement....mwhahahaha


Benarkan ku 'tuk berbicara...
Bicara terus ke hati mu.. Hati mu..
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudah
Untuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamu
Aku tahu
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu



p/s:
wish all of these is just a dream...
hoping that i'll be back being myself.. (being free and happy)
wish that i can smile again.. even when i'm alone in my room... (missed that moment.. )
if only i could wake up in the morning realising that it was JuLy lasT year... (promised i won't messed up again... )

all apologies goes to anyone that had been hurt..or about to be hurt...
bare in mind...i'm hurting too.. huh..


haha sangat emo...!!~ x bley blah (^_*)