Saturday, May 30, 2009

no.. I'm not a sHopahoLic but....

I'm not a shopaholic..
i don't go to the mall shopping for clothes, shoes etc..
i don't go hunt for expensives food...
i don't go to Evita Peroni or whatever the accesories shop called...

last two days i spent over RM700 for about 2 hours for this.....

I Told you i'm not a shopaholic.. didn't I??

*i don't even need the modulator... but still.. can't resist of having it...wakakaka

*cleaning set? to replace the one being 'rocket' by that stupid person who broke into my car... my munchkin is full with dust since that...

*Contact lens? i forgot to change my CL case... the one i used was not tight enough..result? kering lor... i need CL for outing to avoid having a 'spec' on u without really wearing it..huhu

*MP160 catridge... nobody in this house seem to care either the printer got ink or not..ceh..

*the most important stuff i bought was that maxtor 500G 2.5" external harddisk.. i too lazy to burn my pix into dvd.. so external HDD is the best solution maa..akekeke

if u realized.. there's no magazines this time... usually i spent lots on reading stuff (though i haven't finished reading the last issue yet..huhu)..wanna know why?? because my wallet are out of cash...haha.. owh.. i forgot to buy wallet n shoes.. the reason i went to the*T...!!~

p/p/s: i watched Terminator Salvation... alone (-_-') .. there's no more bff by ur side to hang out lor... so sad huh?? nevermind that.. joHn Connor is so cooL lah..akekkeke

BenChinTa bY FaizaL Tahir !!~

Out of no where aku teringat kan lagu ni.. yes.. memang aku tengah saket skang ni (i never confess..and never admit this before..).. and this song is something to desribe me right now..i guess... wakakaka sangat tidak boley blah punya statement....mwhahahaha

Benarkan ku 'tuk berbicara...
Bicara terus ke hati mu.. Hati mu..
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudah
Untuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamu
Aku tahu
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu

wish all of these is just a dream...
hoping that i'll be back being myself.. (being free and happy)
wish that i can smile again.. even when i'm alone in my room... (missed that moment.. )
if only i could wake up in the morning realising that it was JuLy lasT year... (promised i won't messed up again... )

all apologies goes to anyone that had been hurt..or about to be hurt...
bare in mind...i'm hurting too.. huh..

haha sangat emo...!!~ x bley blah (^_*)

Friday, May 29, 2009

oLD BuddY Vs FLicKR BuddY..!!!~

today was quite stressful to me..
though it is the last day of school before a 2 weeks holiday..

early in the morn my GPK ask me to write a report on a bowling tournament.. (a job that supposed to be done a month ago u ask me to do it on my last day working??? ... u're sucks dude..)

then after the 'before holiday meeting' the PE chief with his bestest smile and sweet spoken ask me to help him to settle up some data entry that had to be hand over on May 30th ...which mean tomorrow?? huh... dream off ... i told him that i'm going back to muar this evening and i won't be back untill next monday (june 8th i meant)... i tought i'll be escaped from that assignment.. hell not.. damn.. he ask the GPK KOKO permission to send it next week...huh... it's not like i'm trying not to do my job over here.. but it's really not my job.. not even supposed to be my business either... i'm not one of the 'panitia PJ' members...he just lurve to use my weakness (yes i hardly refuse to accept any job given) to escape from doing all the data entry..cet... the result?? i need to bring that bunch of 'data mentah' everywhere i go now!!~

i thought i could live my holiday peacefully ..without any job..assignment... etc.. but i was wrong.. besides those PE assignment.. i need to teach a science class for standard 6 students on june 8th.. then i need to prepare a programme book for a DUN programme.... adoi hai...

i could never have a peaceful holiday...uwaaaaa :'(

who said being a teacher is enjoyable?? have lots of holidays?? working half day only?? (yes the officially working hour is between 7.00 am to 1.10 pm but the work u have to bring home is like working 24 hours a day dude...!!!~ even in sleep u'll be thinking the job that haven't finished yet..huhu) + we works on Saturday too!!~

owh.. off topic lah pulak..
back to the original topic..

every flickr members know i lurve outdoor outing.. everyone knows i'm going to genting this june 20th with the Butik Tee member for a day outing.. i even confirm my attendance...
but today.. with all the guts i get.. i'm telling everybody that i can't make it.. why??

i recieved an sms this evening asking me either i'll be on my friend wedding.. (i should say my bff i think..erm..being bestfriends since industrial training at the zoo).. it was from anep.. cut it short... i'll retype the sms...

anep : siga saga! siga saga!

me : oi! oi! oi! (common respond for siga saga!...hehe)

anep : ko pe x chee kawen bln dpan?

me : Bulan depan eh? june? brapa hb?

anep : 20 jun kot.. gua jd pengapit doh..

me : 20 june??? alemak.. aku ade program lah... ade outing kt genting.. da 2 bln nyer plan...

anep : xde xde ... chee kawen babe.. chee tau...!!!~

me : -no reply- thinking... and more thinking.....

then i send a sms to chee
me : chee... ko nikah 20 june ke babes?

chee : -lambat reply-

i can't wait for his reply.. so i called
me : uit babes ko nyer wedding 20 june ke?

chee : haah.. nikah 20 .. sanding 21.. mox smua trun tau..

me : tau.. dia bgtau jd pengapit.. ko ni.. aritu aku tanya ko xmo bgtau date.. aku da ade programme tu 20 jun tu.. ade outing kt genting.. da 2 bln plan babes..

chee : ngan family ke?

me : no lah.. ngan member2 flickr.. photography...

chee : ye lah boy..aku ingat nak buat surprised... x tau lah pulak skarang member busy dgn lah ... kawan2 baru lebey penting dr kawan2 lama.. (damn.. dia suddah buka ayat merajuks..huhu) u choose new friend over old friend...

me : -take a deep breath- adoi hai.. dah dah diam.. ok aku pergi.. diorang overnite ke babes? ada place utk overnite x? jauh tu nk berulang..

chee : umah aku for my family .. but i've prepare place utk kawan2... mcm tu lah boy.. hehe

me : oklah aku overnite gak... adoi.. kna gak aku g kl beli jiwa kawan2 time cuti ni..huh.. abis lah
aku kena kutuk..akeke..k lah.. aku g.. chiow..

chee : ok.

then i get back to anep
me : ok aku trun...

anep : cara..cara..

it's a tough decission to make when u have to choose between friends... but this time i've chose old buddy over Flickr buddy.. i'm sorry guys (eshazli especially)... me and them ..we'd been friends since 2002.. and as mike said.. "xpe lah.. outing hari2 kawen skali je" huhu...

p/s: to all my friends.. lurve u guys...
for me once a friend forever a friend... unless u hated me so much and didn't wanna be my friends anymore...huhu

Teringat zaman dolu-dolu with them....
Palm CiveT post mortem... my Fave acTivities...

Penguin Post Mortem
Me and rest of the cLan... (so unbalanced.. who took this pic ya??)

Thursday, May 28, 2009

oPPpsSsS ter Go PubLic plak...!!

Adoi ter Go Public lah plaK...bley lak ter mention abit this blog on my FLicKr....wakakaka...siLLy mE!!~

This entry duplicated from my FlickR

lately i've been thinking that i really wanted to start blogging again...

i'd been blogging since friendster introduced their service a(lama kan? huhu)...then i went for blogspot to express "the art in me" (it's mean a private blog.. open for my bff only.. my aunt and cousin are friendstering so i need to cabut from fster blogging..huhu)... playing with lights and colours with my munchkin avoiding me from spending my time blogging.. (been too busy getting to know my munchkin but still x reti-reti jugak guna..haha)

lately.. i trying to get use to the keyboard (i meant practising my typing skill lor..)..and i start posting on my personal blog (not the official one lah... that one need more concentration and fact..huhu).. and Yes.. i'm blogging agian..!!~


1. i'm tired of seeing lots of light and colours!!~
2. i've to distract myself to something that will keep me busy from thinking...
3. i've no one to hang out with me on weekend since dwi 'bawa diri' to sarawak... (it's not like i
don't wanna u to go babes.. it just i don't wanna to be left alone here :'( .... and z are too busy to ' balek kg' lately)
4. i started to read blogs again... (d*mN people nowadays are quite creative in expressing thing
in their mind).. so i feel like blogging again..huhu
5. I get creative when i go 'jiwa kacau' ... i need to express it since no one there anymore to be
my shoulder to cry...wakakaka
6. Shutter Count: 50463 + another coulpe of hundreds (aiyo.. suddah lebey sparuh maa.. need
to be prepare for a new hobby...wakakaka)

oh gosh.. i told u i need to start blogging...
see...?? i'm blogging on my flickr...hahah

Monday, May 25, 2009

Responding to my dear cik BeskaLpanciT blog dan mereka-mereka yang berjiwa kacau...

hati telah lama mati…
jiwa telah lama sembunyi..
knapa perlu datang kembali…
membawa sebuah fantasi…
jika benar itu realiti..
permudahkanlah jalan ini..
jika itu hanya mimpi..
matikanlah rasa ini…

-from the blurry mind of bRaT-
11.07 am, May 25th 09

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Dugaan & CabaRan..!~

Reading a blog belong to a friend of mine force me to write this....
nothing important .. it's just came across my mind...

sometimes Life it just not fair..
x berjalan seperti yang kita rancang...
but that's life..
full of 'dugaan and cabaran'...
apa yang kita x mahu kadang2 itu yang kita dapat..
though people thought that itu sangat2 x bagus.. kejam.. jahat or what so ever..
tp buat mereka yang mengalami nyer? (bukan semua dr mereka itu lah..)
itu bukan kehendak mereka..
itu ujian dari Yang Esa...
apa yang kita cuba utk elak tu kadang2 itu yang kita dapat..
yang jd ujian utk kita..
walau kita rasa kita bukan lah jahat mana...
dalam x sedar.. rupa-rupa nya kita pun sama macam mereka yang di anggap jahat..jalang.. etc...
sedey kan?
kadang2 terfikir.. ntah macam mana kita pun boley mengalami keadaan seperti mereka yang kita kutuk sebelum ni...
tapi itulah dugaan & cabaran kehidupan...

kita tgk org.. kita kata orang... last2 kita yang jd macam diorg..
bak kaat pepatah baru skang ni "jangan mengata orang...Tuhan Bayar cash skang ni.."

p/s: aku da start merapu semula... that's a good thing.. guess i'm back being myself.. wakakakaka

p/p/s: Thanx to Miss Beskal pancit... tetiba ade idea lak nak merapu lpas baca blog kw..aekkeke


Thursday, May 21, 2009

i wanted to say this... but.....

i wanted to say this "yes i'm back blogging" but " i'm afraid i won't have enough time to write"....
i wanted to say this "i miss blogging.." but "i never tried to spent time blogging..huhu"...
i wanted to say this "i promised i'll never leave my blog again" but "i'm afraid promise is just a promise..hehe"...

aRgHhHh malas ah nak cakap apa-apa... i'll write if i feel like writing.. otherwise i'll keep silent spending my time on flickr je... huhu