aLLerGy.. oh ALLerGy..!!~

LasT saturday i went to the mall .. once i step into the mall and started to feel the freezing air condition.. my palm started to get itchy.I went there again yesterday i still face the same problem...this time my feet get itchy too...so i made up the conclusion..it is because the poor ventilation..

but today i started realising that my conclusion was totally wrong.. i bought an ice cream from a student (malaysian style ice cream).. once i hold the the ice cream my palm started to get itchy.. this time worse than before..i scratched & rub the palm until it become warmer.. the itchness is gone but the palm is getting a little bit swollen..and numb..

since i was a kid i rarely gone to the doctor ..unless i can't stand the pain.. so i ask my mom whom a nurse about my problem.. and she said

"tu nama nye allergy sejuk.."

i was like..

"what? allergy sejuk? boley plak ? ade gak penyakit tu eh?"

all i know is i do suffer from allergy but only to dust and some food...and not this 'allergy sejuk'.. yes, it's true .. i can't stand cold weather but never get itchy maa...i sit back and started to remember .."oh... now i remember..!" i do face this problem several time before... it's just become worse..

do i have to go for an official medical diagnosis?

p/s: a blanket or at least a jacket and a pair of socks is a must for me everytime i went to sleep.. huhu.. (plus watching Tv in the living room.. i hate it when my bro put on the aircond to the max..haha)

i spent over a hundred for books on a day..

maRi maKan Patin..

i just lurve ikan paTin...

seriously i didn't do cooking..
i'm sucks in cooking..
but today i manage to cook a set of 'masak lemak cili api ikan patin' & 'kailan Goreng' + 'Telur dadar'
and i'm surprised my brother ask me to add on some extra fish .... lapar sangat ke? (sorry bro.. letih suddah masak.. mau makan lagi goreng sendri then cebur je dlm itu kuah..wkakakak).

Monday BLueS..!!!~

aku sangat malas mau kerja esok...

seriously i'm not in the mood to start working after about 2 weeks hanging around doing nothing..
2 weeks of holiday should be enough for me to refresh myself... but i never did..
true .. i'm not doing my official job..i'm resting from working... but my mind didn't...
it seem like my mind won't let my brain from taking the holiday...
i've been doing lots of thinking recently.. don't ask me what did i think about..
i didn't know how to answer that!!~
maybe i need a proper vacation where i spent my time alone peacefully in an island maybe?? haha


i'm counting days for the next school break...mwakakkaka..

My BuddieS anD I..!!~
-={LurvE Ya...}=-

haPpy FatheR's day ..!!~

abah..
i never had the chance to
confess that i lurve you...
but i want u to know that i do..
happy father's day abah...

-[with lurve]-
uYa, aiSH, Uda, aBanG, Yan



P/s: to all the fathers and father's to be... happY father's day buddies !!!~..
{smuga jadi aYah YanG TerbaeK buat sahaBaT-sahabaT ku!!~}

p/p/s: sLamat hari bapa inchek... may aLL the happiness be with You!!~ (-_-')

Dedicated To.. [You Know who You aRE..!!~]

wake up and Figure out something..
don't let thing hanging just like that..
stop playing around.. you're not a teenager anymore..
you may not realized that someone is hurt because of u..
don't act like nothing goes wrong..
that's not good dear..
don't simply take everything as easy as ur abnormal life..
wake up and be normal...
people smiling at u doesn't meant they like u...
people laughing with u doesn't meant that they're laughing inside too..
they just wanna you to be happy..
don't just think of ur own self...
think of other people too..
wake up and try to change...!!~


p/s: May all The HappineSS be WiTh You...

aRggGGggGHHHHH !!~

this is what happen when u have to do someone else work..
delay..delay... delay..
sangat x ikhlas..
and it'll end up by paying someone else to finish it up for u..hahaha




sorry areteam.. terpaksa susahkan ko.. aku sangat..sangat xde mood nak buat data entry ni..hehe
i'll pay u later ya..huhu

wasn't born to be a cook.!!~

i'm not a good homemaker..

i can't cook..
i can't clean up the house..
i can't even fold the clothes neatly..
i can't even manage myself..
how can i be a good homemaker?

*****************************************

it's been a week me and mom wasn't at home..
nothing much in the fridge to be cook..
it took a while before i decide to actually cook..
no fresh vegetable .. no meat or anything else other than couple of fishes..
it remind me how i survive in campus..
illegally bring my rice cooker, me and my friend cook lots of meal..
we cook tom yum.. mushroom soup... fried rice.. cekodok.. porridge..
we even cook mee hun soup with that rice cooker..

pengalaman... pengalaman....
rendu pulak kt ukm.. kt chermai college...
being a student surely teach me lot's of thing..

Kentang goreng.. sangat senang di masak with rice cooker..
in fact we don't need fridge to keep the potato isn't it? huhu

dip it with mayonaise or chili sauce.. nyum nyum..

so LittLe Time so MucH To Do...!!!~

I have Lot's of work to be done..
as usual.. i'm delaying my work... haha
i'm always like that...
whenever i got lots of works to be done.. i'm delaying...
what's the exact word huh?? Procrastinating??
whatever..
instead of finishing my works.. i'm blogging?? hahaha..

a day before my lips turn scary..huhu

playing with photoscapes

BaD mouth???

some people have allergy of their own...
some people allergy to shrimp paste..
some people allergy to dust..
some people allergy to sea food..
some people allergy to fruit..etc..
me?? i'm allergy to anything with shrimp paste...dust and this fruit called kuini..

my face get itchy whenever i ate anything with shrimp paste or whenever i'm in a space with lots of dust..

i get itchy lips whenever i ate kuini... and it's not just itchy.. it become like this....

scary huh??

but it wasn't caused by a kuini..i just knew it..... i keep thinking what did i eat that cause all this... but i found nothing... i didn't eat kuini lately... hurm... was it because that turkish candy my aunt gave to me? i don't know.. but i hate this... it's hurt.. and it's ugly to have that weird thing on ur lips... adoi lah....

this is my lip condition 3 days ago..

it's getting worse day by day... sakit oOo.. bila nak kering luka ni??!!~ arGhhhH

a Pack weeK - eNd??!!~

iT's a schooL holiDay.. everyone knew that.. what else can I do other than thinking hard where should i go spending my on.. (like i have much..huh)

since i didn't follow my mom to Bukit Tinggi.. I decided to drive mY abby to aMpang lpak2 with akak, my cousin.. furthermore i already promised my long time buddy Kamarul 'sLam' shahir & zaYana Zahira to hang out with them.. ask pacat, my '7 years younger than me' cousin to accompany me.. paid her a sum of money since she had to close her ABC stall for several days..she insist to drive her car.. i was like.."oh sure!!~" (driving her car mean i don't need to drive at all... YeaY!!~... i don't drive 'auto' maa).. though i know i have to double up the expenses by bringing pacat but still.. i don't have to drive..hahahaha...

Left Muar around 6-7 pm, on tuesday then arrived at ampang 2 and a half hour later.. 'Laju'?? hell yeah... but not as 'laju' as my abby performance (on the highway lah i meant...huhu).. don't go anywhere that nite since it's nite already..

The next day we went to sunway Piramid to done some window shopping and meet CT Tito,my buddy since matriculation.. but she didn't show up due to some miscommunication..hahaha... i need a new pair of shoe for outing.. decided to buy another sckechers or crocs lor but guess what?? i didn't know why it's hard to find size 7 for this 2 Label.. (normally i'm the easiest one to get suitable size for my feet..).. oh .. it's not hard to get maa.. it's "size 7 da habis.." then i ask for another design. it goes "pun da abis" the same answer i get to all design i choose.. i even ask for the ugliest design and still i get "size 8 ada lah.."... wTF... is not happening at sunway branch only maa... i get the same answer for Mid Valley outlet... huh.. told my cousin "aku rasa crocs n sckechers da x buat lah size 7"...wakakakka... I end up with no shoes in my shopping bag maa... Luckily i bought a pair of Dr Cardin sandal since my mom wear my old skechers to Bukit Tinggi before.. Looking for converse saja lah after this... (-_-'). shoes are out from the shopping list.. i need to find a wallet to replace the current one.. and i found what my eyes lurve to see... an army green united colours of benetton with genuine leather.. (i know.. it's not guess..mng or anything expensive lor..but still i can save half the price of a rm400 wallet by choosing this one...erk.. before less lor..huhu)

thanx goodness i met cik Na at mid valley utk lupakan seketika my frustration..mwahahaha... cik na looks like sheila rusly lah lately.. why ah? is it because she's a wartawan hiburan who full with gossip?? hahaha... promise cik na i'll buy her lunch but i'm too late to pay for her veggie..sorry cik na (sorry juga for didn't have the chnce to bring my abah 'satay goreng' hehe)..hehe.. sLam buy us dinner last nite.. (me, z and pacat).. i have to meet him course i've promised to test out his d90 (strong reason ka?..wakakka)... no lah.. i've to meet him because he's my best buddy lor.. even my mom n aunts knew him.. so it's kinda safe to go anywhere with him after this..hahaha.. (oh.. mak.. slam kem salam..)

i met cik na already.. slam..z.. bentayan degil + don firdaus (not in the plan... but thanx guys for the tips...huhu)... who else ya....(rewinding memories... scanning..scanning...) oh ya.. went to gurl's to visit her and he kids.. they are growing fast.. the last time i visit them irfan is like a new born who knows nothing... now? irfan is so chomey running here and there... climbing the chairs etc.... hehe.... who else did i met ya..oh no.. that's all.. itu saje yang sudi jumpa aku kah? haha.. (oh shoot.. i forgot to meet aisha asmir & mamat sh4rp...adoi abis lah jd bahan..)

now u know why did i always in KL? i've friends there lor.. next holiday i'm planning for ... where else Penang + utara lor... my fave place..huhu.. have my northern brothers there...

Heading back to Muar, johor, saTurday 6 am in the morning...planning to change the car then heading to Kempas, johor for our parent's cousin wedding at first.. un fortunately my car battery was totally kong maa.. (can't even unlock the alarm..) we have to do what we have to do first lah.. need to change battery with pacat's car to start the engine.. went to workshop to changed pacat's fused since my very clever cousin, jeman suddah salah pasang cable battery maa.. then we heading to pagoh to park pacat's car at our uncle's house and drive fast & furiously (i'm driving lah) to kempas.. by the time we arrived at pagoh.. the other group was like already in machap area... we are about 20-30 minutes behind them.. but we managed to catch them up at kempas higway exit (of course they need to wait a little bit lah... not more than 15 minute i guess..enough for their w.c stop..huhu)

the next day i need to pick mum up at malacca and went back home.. Muar - Rengit was only about 2 and a half hours journey but i need to stop twice one for fuel stop and the 2nd one was for refreshment.. i was too sleepy to drive but i need to drive since mom was surrender from driving already.. she had a very long journey from bukit tinggi - Dumai and she need her rest.. (macam lah mak nk drive my car..ceh).. the main reason that we have to get back home that night was because both of us were working on monday..wakakakak... Letih oOOoo..

Don Firdaus - Thanx for The eDiting tips

HusnY 'BenTayan' Rizal - Thanx sebab ajak lpak2..huhu


Gurl's Precious... [Imran, sYarmin & iRfan]


Cik Puan ZaYana ZahiRa Isa


En KamaRuL 'SLamDunk' ShahiR Karim..


On the way To Gurl's place..


I'm in such a hurry.. Diorg sebuk2 nak amek gambar..huh


The Cam wHorers cousin... huhu


slam witH His D NooTY [eh tu ayie nyer..hehe]

A pReGger need Lots oF Folic Acid Lor..

p/s: sorry u have to read my rambling..huhu

HeadaChe oh heaDacHe..!!~

Responding to Miss ClueLess FiLa's bLog...!!~



weird huh??
they said coffee & migraine Can't get along..
but why did this article stated that coffee (dust) + lime can cure headache?
it taste good too..
even korean lurve this drink..(seen in korean movie lor..huhu)

p/s: i get the wrong idea all this time... i've been drinking ice lime coffee everytime i got headache...(purposely actually since i don't drink hot beverages..hoho)
plus i replace the lime with 'limau kasturi'..huhu

aKoE seDeY..!!~

don't know why..
out of nowhere i'm a little bit sad lately.. i guess...
my heart is crying out.... the tears try to get out but i prevent it so hard from falling ..
the expression are unpredictable..
one minute i came out with a happy face....
one minute later i was like eating 100Kg of tamarind...
another minute i was like no emotion...
don't know what am I thinking but i'm sure i don't like those feeling...
feel like crying but forcing myself not to...
kinda tired from having those feeling.. it makes me looks stupid...
give me haedache that force me to take paracetamol to reduce it....
but still i don't know what to do..

what would u do when u have to wait??

Answer??

CamwHorinG lah.. what else do u expect when u only have ur HP and ur camera with u... no books or magz to be read maa....huhu

wondering what i'm waiting for...?

This is what i'm waiting at... (Lama giler nk berlepas..)

why??

This is why... mummy is leaving us for the whole week!!~ :'(

WheRE?

THere.. but not jusT there... she's going to PadanG...

With whoM?

Them... minus those 2 young lady in bLack... (they just lurve interframing..huhu)

and This me and MoM...

i knew it... i wasn't meant to be a typist!!~

seen this TesT on CLueLessBaby's bLog

the result??

33 perkataan

Speedtest

no.. I'm not a sHopahoLic but....

I'm not a shopaholic..
i don't go to the mall shopping for clothes, shoes etc..
i don't go hunt for expensives food...
i don't go to Evita Peroni or whatever the accesories shop called...
but...

last two days i spent over RM700 for about 2 hours for this.....



I Told you i'm not a shopaholic.. didn't I??


*i don't even need the modulator... but still.. can't resist of having it...wakakaka

*cleaning set? to replace the one being 'rocket' by that stupid person who broke into my car... my munchkin is full with dust since that...

*Contact lens? i forgot to change my CL case... the one i used was not tight enough..result? kering lor... i need CL for outing to avoid having a 'spec' on u without really wearing it..huhu

*MP160 catridge... nobody in this house seem to care either the printer got ink or not..ceh..

*the most important stuff i bought was that maxtor 500G 2.5" external harddisk.. i too lazy to burn my pix into dvd.. so external HDD is the best solution maa..akekeke


p/s:
if u realized.. there's no magazines this time... usually i spent lots on reading stuff (though i haven't finished reading the last issue yet..huhu)..wanna know why?? because my wallet are out of cash...haha.. owh.. i forgot to buy wallet n shoes.. the reason i went to the mall...sh*T...!!~

p/p/s: i watched Terminator Salvation... alone (-_-') .. there's no more bff by ur side to hang out lor... so sad huh?? nevermind that.. joHn Connor is so cooL lah..akekkeke

BenChinTa bY FaizaL Tahir !!~

Out of no where aku teringat kan lagu ni.. yes.. memang aku tengah saket skang ni (i never confess..and never admit this before..).. and this song is something to desribe me right now..i guess... wakakaka sangat tidak boley blah punya statement....mwhahahaha


Benarkan ku 'tuk berbicara...
Bicara terus ke hati mu.. Hati mu..
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudah
Untuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamu
Aku tahu
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu



p/s:
wish all of these is just a dream...
hoping that i'll be back being myself.. (being free and happy)
wish that i can smile again.. even when i'm alone in my room... (missed that moment.. )
if only i could wake up in the morning realising that it was JuLy lasT year... (promised i won't messed up again... )

all apologies goes to anyone that had been hurt..or about to be hurt...
bare in mind...i'm hurting too.. huh..


haha sangat emo...!!~ x bley blah (^_*)

oLD BuddY Vs FLicKR BuddY..!!!~

today was quite stressful to me..
though it is the last day of school before a 2 weeks holiday..

early in the morn my GPK ask me to write a report on a bowling tournament.. (a job that supposed to be done a month ago u ask me to do it on my last day working??? ... u're sucks dude..)

then after the 'before holiday meeting' the PE chief with his bestest smile and sweet spoken ask me to help him to settle up some data entry that had to be hand over on May 30th ...which mean tomorrow?? huh... dream off ... i told him that i'm going back to muar this evening and i won't be back untill next monday (june 8th i meant)... i tought i'll be escaped from that assignment.. hell not.. damn.. he ask the GPK KOKO permission to send it next week...huh... it's not like i'm trying not to do my job over here.. but it's really not my job.. not even supposed to be my business either... i'm not one of the 'panitia PJ' members...he just lurve to use my weakness (yes i hardly refuse to accept any job given) to escape from doing all the data entry..cet... the result?? i need to bring that bunch of 'data mentah' everywhere i go now!!~

i thought i could live my holiday peacefully ..without any job..assignment... etc.. but i was wrong.. besides those PE assignment.. i need to teach a science class for standard 6 students on june 8th.. then i need to prepare a programme book for a DUN programme.... adoi hai...

i could never have a peaceful holiday...uwaaaaa :'(

p/s:
who said being a teacher is enjoyable?? have lots of holidays?? working half day only?? (yes the officially working hour is between 7.00 am to 1.10 pm but the work u have to bring home is like working 24 hours a day dude...!!!~ even in sleep u'll be thinking the job that haven't finished yet..huhu) + we works on Saturday too!!~


owh.. off topic lah pulak..
back to the original topic..

every flickr members know i lurve outdoor outing.. everyone knows i'm going to genting this june 20th with the Butik Tee member for a day outing.. i even confirm my attendance...
but today.. with all the guts i get.. i'm telling everybody that i can't make it.. why??

i recieved an sms this evening asking me either i'll be on my friend wedding.. (i should say my bff i think..erm..being bestfriends since industrial training at the zoo).. it was from anep.. cut it short... i'll retype the sms...

anep : siga saga! siga saga!

me : oi! oi! oi! (common respond for siga saga!...hehe)

anep : ko pe x chee kawen bln dpan?

me : Bulan depan eh? june? brapa hb?

anep : 20 jun kot.. gua jd pengapit doh..

me : 20 june??? alemak.. aku ade program lah... ade outing kt genting.. da 2 bln nyer plan...

anep : xde xde ... chee kawen babe.. chee tau...!!!~

me : -no reply- thinking... and more thinking.....

then i send a sms to chee
me : chee... ko nikah 20 june ke babes?

chee : -lambat reply-


i can't wait for his reply.. so i called
me : uit babes ko nyer wedding 20 june ke?

chee : haah.. nikah 20 .. sanding 21.. mox smua trun tau..

me : tau.. dia bgtau jd pengapit.. ko ni.. aritu aku tanya ko xmo bgtau date.. aku da ade programme tu 20 jun tu.. ade outing kt genting.. da 2 bln plan babes..

chee : ngan family ke?

me : no lah.. ngan member2 flickr.. photography...

chee : ye lah boy..aku ingat nak buat surprised... x tau lah pulak skarang member busy dgn photography...ye lah ... kawan2 baru lebey penting dr kawan2 lama.. (damn.. dia suddah buka ayat merajuks..huhu) u choose new friend over old friend...

me : -take a deep breath- adoi hai.. dah dah diam.. ok aku pergi.. diorang overnite ke babes? ada place utk overnite x? jauh tu nk berulang..

chee : umah aku for my family .. but i've prepare place utk kawan2... mcm tu lah boy.. hehe

me : oklah aku overnite gak... adoi.. kna gak aku g kl beli jiwa kawan2 time cuti ni..huh.. abis lah
aku kena kutuk..akeke..k lah.. aku g.. chiow..

chee : ok.


then i get back to anep
me : ok aku trun...

anep : cara..cara..

it's a tough decission to make when u have to choose between friends... but this time i've chose old buddy over Flickr buddy.. i'm sorry guys (eshazli especially)... me and them ..we'd been friends since 2002.. and as mike said.. "xpe lah.. outing hari2 kawen skali je" huhu...


p/s: to all my friends.. lurve u guys...
for me once a friend forever a friend... unless u hated me so much and didn't wanna be my friends anymore...huhu

Teringat zaman dolu-dolu with them....
Palm CiveT post mortem... my Fave acTivities...

Penguin Post Mortem
Me and rest of the cLan... (so unbalanced.. who took this pic ya??)

oPPpsSsS ter Go PubLic plak...!!

Adoi ter Go Public lah plaK...bley lak ter mention abit this blog on my FLicKr....wakakaka...siLLy mE!!~




This entry duplicated from my FlickR

lately i've been thinking that i really wanted to start blogging again...

i'd been blogging since friendster introduced their service a(lama kan? huhu)...then i went for blogspot to express "the art in me" (it's mean a private blog.. open for my bff only.. my aunt and cousin are friendstering so i need to cabut from fster blogging..huhu)... playing with lights and colours with my munchkin avoiding me from spending my time blogging.. (been too busy getting to know my munchkin but still x reti-reti jugak guna..haha)

lately.. i trying to get use to the keyboard (i meant practising my typing skill lor..)..and i start posting on my personal blog (not the official brattography.getokubi.com one lah... that one need more concentration and fact..huhu).. and Yes.. i'm blogging agian..!!~

reason??

1. i'm tired of seeing lots of light and colours!!~
2. i've to distract myself to something that will keep me busy from thinking...
3. i've no one to hang out with me on weekend since dwi 'bawa diri' to sarawak... (it's not like i
don't wanna u to go babes.. it just i don't wanna to be left alone here :'( .... and z are too busy to ' balek kg' lately)
4. i started to read blogs again... (d*mN people nowadays are quite creative in expressing thing
in their mind).. so i feel like blogging again..huhu
5. I get creative when i go 'jiwa kacau' ... i need to express it since no one there anymore to be
my shoulder to cry...wakakaka
6. Shutter Count: 50463 + another coulpe of hundreds (aiyo.. suddah lebey sparuh maa.. need
to be prepare for a new hobby...wakakaka)

oh gosh.. i told u i need to start blogging...
see...?? i'm blogging on my flickr...hahah

Responding to my dear cik BeskaLpanciT blog dan mereka-mereka yang berjiwa kacau...

hati telah lama mati…
jiwa telah lama sembunyi..
knapa perlu datang kembali…
membawa sebuah fantasi…
jika benar itu realiti..
permudahkanlah jalan ini..
jika itu hanya mimpi..
matikanlah rasa ini…

-from the blurry mind of bRaT-
11.07 am, May 25th 09

Dugaan & CabaRan..!~

Reading a blog belong to a friend of mine force me to write this....
nothing important .. it's just came across my mind...


sometimes Life it just not fair..
x berjalan seperti yang kita rancang...
but that's life..
full of 'dugaan and cabaran'...
apa yang kita x mahu kadang2 itu yang kita dapat..
though people thought that itu sangat2 x bagus.. kejam.. jahat or what so ever..
tp buat mereka yang mengalami nyer? (bukan semua dr mereka itu lah..)
itu bukan kehendak mereka..
itu ujian dari Yang Esa...
apa yang kita cuba utk elak tu kadang2 itu yang kita dapat..
yang jd ujian utk kita..
walau kita rasa kita bukan lah jahat mana...
dalam x sedar.. rupa-rupa nya kita pun sama macam mereka yang di anggap jahat..jalang.. etc...
sedey kan?
kadang2 terfikir.. ntah macam mana kita pun boley mengalami keadaan seperti mereka yang kita kutuk sebelum ni...
tapi itulah dugaan & cabaran kehidupan...

kita tgk org.. kita kata orang... last2 kita yang jd macam diorg..
bak kaat pepatah baru skang ni "jangan mengata orang...Tuhan Bayar cash skang ni.."


p/s: aku da start merapu semula... that's a good thing.. guess i'm back being myself.. wakakakaka

p/p/s: Thanx to Miss Beskal pancit... tetiba ade idea lak nak merapu lpas baca blog kw..aekkeke



-regards-
bRaT

i wanted to say this... but.....

i wanted to say this "yes i'm back blogging" but " i'm afraid i won't have enough time to write"....

i wanted to say this "i miss blogging.." but "i never tried to spent time blogging..huhu"...

i wanted to say this "i promised i'll never leave my blog again" but "i'm afraid promise is just a promise..hehe"...

aRgHhHh malas ah nak cakap apa-apa... i'll write if i feel like writing.. otherwise i'll keep silent spending my time on flickr je... huhu

force myself to write...

i wonder where did all my interest in blogging gone?

i have no ideas in what to write lately...

i didn't know why but i guess it's have to be something about this this slow internet connection... or is it got anything to do with my passion in photography? hehehe i really have no ideas...

what did i know is ..my vocabulary is getting faded ..my words are getting so not interested to be read...wakakkaka

damn...!!~

Well enough said..

this is for u...

puiSi HaTi

oTak terkunci...
emosi memakan diri...
hati pedih menghantui ..
ego tumpas lagi..
bila ia pergi tetap cuba berdiri...
membalut luka dengan besi...
hampir sedekad besi menghuni..
lebur persis larva gunung berapi..
sia-sia menepis kanan dan kiri...
yang datang lebih menguji..
perit itu datang lagi...
kali ini lebih menyakiti...
tapi kenapa masih berani..?
mengadai kewarasan diri...
hingga akal dan hati tidak selari...


"ku petik guitar walau tidak bernada..
membujuk hati yang semakin mati...
Memohon dari Illahi..
supaya terbuka mata hati...smuga Tabah menghadapi..."

muakakakakkakakaka..... aku hilang dalam mimpi !~

-bornraisedntrap-
-1200am, 23 jan 09-

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-={Gerhana Skacinta ft. Altimet Teh Tarik Crew - Joe Blid - Love}=-

love, love will fill your heart
love will break your heart
love will heal you broken heart

what's love??love is what make the world go round
love can lift you up, it can tear you down
love is a sweetest joy, the deepest pain
love id effortless, needs work to maintain
love can make you stupid, luv can turn you dumb
make you forget where you at, where you come from
love it's a many splendid thing
love can be forever or just be a fling
love can began with a smile
love between a mother and her child
between siblings, love between friends
the power to heal hearts, to make amends
love filled with laughter, end in tears
fear can stop your love, love can stop your fears
love the one above, make you stand tall
one love, it's all love, love one, love all

oh berombak lagi, oh kisah dunia
cerah jiwa gemuruh bergelora
erti sebenar dunia sementara
berlari kau ke sini dan ke sana
berlari mencari nur kasih hatimu yang telah lama
kau pejam hinggakan sesat dirimu
tiada sangsi dalam diri bertikam dengan cinta gila
semuanya hasutan sementara
berubahlah jiwa ribut dunia
melanda semua hakikatnya lorong berbeza
cinta ku mungkinlah oh!! beribu, yang tetap hanyalah satu

bLoGginG bLogGeRs!!~

adeh.. lama tol aku ilang mood nk blogging..
don't why cuma seru tu xde utk merapu..hehe..
latest news aku skang tersadai di bukit beruntung after sminggu meloloskan diri dari rumah beralamat no. 18, Batu 22 Sungai Kluang, 83100 Rengit, Batu Pahat, Johor..
last week my aunt call ajak p penang.. so on friday 21 November tengah hari aku da drove to muar p umah mak mah aku tuh.. lpak kjap around 6pm drove to KL dgn Unser dia to pick her daughter up... then singgah umah cousin aq, akak kat Tmn Mulia Jaya, Ampang pastu overnite kt umah another cousin at area Tasik Ampang.. tdur pn 2 jam jer... mlm tu my cousin,uda ajak p downtown, cheras... ntah apa dia cari ntah.. balek jam 4.. tdur sat then jam 6++ cousin2 aq da sebuk nk p keje.. da x bley tdur..adeh..

before tghari kami bergerak lak ke ipoh.. pick my cousin, pacat punya boyfriend to join us..(kna jadi driver full time si azman ni..wakakak).. dari ipoh trus gerak ke penang.. malang nyer almost smua hotel fully booked.. last2 dapat hotel cikai giler lah... adeh.. nyesal x book awal.. ni smua gara2 plan mengejut mak mah aq ler ni...mlm p jln2 cari mkn around penang road.. btol punya jalan kaki maa... smua sbb nk cari malay dine in sbb mak mah aq x makan kt mamak's... lpas makan patutnye aku p lpak ngan my buddies pon n maruwan.. tp ade skit miscommunication 2-2 belah pihak tunggu masing2 call ..last2 smua tertdur..

pagi ahad tu engat nk gamble je jalan2.. pusing2 sesat lor.... x tau nk p mana.. x tau jalan pun...
sib baik slam call kata dia kt umah pon.. last2 pon n maruwan p amek kitorg guide jalan..
dapat p butterfly farm je pun.. coz mak mah nk g shopping jeruk kt chow rasta ke apa ntah nama tempatnye... lpas shopping... lpak kt padang kota pekena pasembur n prawn mee penang style... tak lupa gak my fave char kue teaw.. x bley thn babe.. kunun nk share ngan pon char kue teaw n mee udang.. last2 order 2nd char kue teaw for myself..wakakaka... pastu trus trus gerak balik ke tambun.. overnite kt sana lak.. (sian mak mah aku x dpt bawak family dia jalan2 sgt sbb aku pn xtau tempat..wakakaka.. lg pn penang hill nye cable car tutup ..engat nk bawak cousin2 yg kechek2 tu p sana..huhu)..

kt Tambun stay at sunway city.. sewa rumah rm250/day.. umah Sarjan Mejar si Azman .. so suka2 hati nk check in n check out jam brapa...mlm tu tdur spanjang hari sbb letih... pepagi buta lak cousin2 yg kechik2 tu da buat pesta air lak... bising giler ajak p lost world of tambun sbb x puas mandi swimming pool.. dengan mata dan hati yang berat setelah di serbu 3-4 kali oleh bdk2 tu, aku pun bgn ah.. mandi dan follow diorg p sana... yg x best nyer aku bkn mandi pun.. jadi tukang jaga bag n amek gambau jer... buhsan tol.. sempat ler online sampai batery notebook n hp flat giler smentara tunggu diorg abis mandi... hehe.. mak mah n cik razak aku lak bergilir call ptg tu ajak balik... depa kata "oi.. da jumpa air x engat nak balik ke?"... patut pun dia suh aku nk anak dia je bawak anak2 dia yg kecik2 tu.,. rupa nyer dia nk cover tdur.. ampeh.. pastu sempat g shopping lak tu... aku je tersadai kt lost world of tambun duk perati org main air... x adil btol...heheh... ptg tu dalam jam 4-5 ntah baru ah gerak p bukit beruntung lak... singgah umah mak ya aku lah.. bujet nk overnite je kt sini... rupa2 nya dia rachun aku stay sini jaga anak2 dia sbb dia nk p vietnam... ceh..

dan dari isnin lpas sampai ler today aku masih disini.. melepak.. mengopakkan akaun bank aku sendri... sempat ler jugak p cuchi mata... cuchi poket... siap kna pow top-up ari2 lak tuh.. bijak tol si abg n adik ni.. ajak p zoo negara bg beruang makan... tapi everything aku yg bayau... bijak tahap gaban tol bdk2 ni..wkakaak... pastu da pnat ajak lpak mid valley lak.. smpat gak ah aku bli rachun 50mm f1.8 idaman kalbu kt trillion mid valley ni ha..bli diffuser sb600 n 2 52mm uv filter utk hubby aku ni ha...kopak jugak lah... blum bli spek n btol keta lg ni..heheh

last saturday lak aku p runda-runda usj ngan si pacat.. g umah gurl kjap then crush kt umah akak at ampang.. ahad pg jumpa ct at usj smula cause tumpang dia p umah kawan kami si aliyes nyer wedding at bahau.. balek singgah minum kt ulu bendul sat ..engat nk try lens 50mm aku tu.. tp batuk aku mengganggu lak.. giler babas nyer teruk aku batuk2 kt sana... tahap nk tercabut jantung nyer..wakakaka... dr ulu bendul.. antar nanu kt senawang then trus drive ke usj smula.. singgah umah ct refreshing then hang out kt oldtown dinner kt sana... tetiba 9.30 tringat nk follow cik man aku p amek makya kt LCCT... apa lagi berdessup ah dr usj ke bkt beruntung... aku da x larat nk bukak mata dah.. si pacat lak ajak follow skali.. on the way ke LCCT aku buat concert dengkur ngan abg n adik.. heheh.. sdar2 je da nk sampai LCCT..wakakaka.. kna plak flight mak ya delay lak.. melepak ah dpn mcD tu dkat sjam gak ah... balek trus ngorok x sdar diri... sampai overslept ah pg td..heheh

adeh.. ade lagi 3 ari aku kt sini... dgn kesihatan yg sgt teruk aku rasa nk balik umah je ni.. tp x larat nk balik naek bus ler... teruk batuk aku ni.. adesh.....

cRy me a River???!!~

i'll cry for myself...
not for u...
not for somebody else...

i'll hide my sadness..
not for sympathy..
not for empathy...

i'll hold to ur promise..
to be there..
just for me...

akoe benci kamoe.!!~

ku... sendirian..
ku... sedey lagi..
ku... patah hati..
ku... sakit lagi...

kau... mana pergi..
kau... hilang lagi..
kau... mana lari..
kau... pergi mati...!!~

ku... benci kamoe...
ku... tlah buang mu...
ku... benci akoe...
ku... masih rendumu...

buhsan kah kau.. pada akoe..
bencikah ... dirimu...
gantung ku... tanpa tali...
biarku... sakit sendri...

oh chenta ku... mana pergi
oh renduku... kau hilang lagi..
kau... mana lari...
kau... pergi mati..!!~

pergi .. dari sini...
akoe... benci kamoe!!~

it's holiday season..!!~

november is coming up.. which mean the school holiday is coming up..
which mean it's time for me and some friends start thinking and searching places where we're going to spend our holiday at..

since i already sign up to be a member of celebrity vvip discount card, we shouldn't have to worry about hotel rate anymore..infact there's lots and lots of budget hotel we could surf around the net.. with just one click we're ready to go..