Monday, October 5, 2009

what the heck..[notes from my facebook]

masih ade kah diskriminasi size zaman skang ni?

stupid..!

i don't give a damn about me being fat as long as i am healthy.. but this kinda question i rarely heard lah..it's kinda funny too..

yesterday my friend got this question from his friend

"Brat tu gemok ke?"

sentap kawan aku dgr soalan dr kawn dia yang x knal aku tu.. is that a polite question to ask about a person who u didn't really know? mcam da xde soalan lain jer nak intro tanya pasal aku...macam tanya org tengah basuh keta

"tengah watpe tu? basuh keta ke?"

aku yang terang2 gumok ni dia bley tanya size aku? hello.. go do some research lah if u want to know about me.. my pix is everywhere lah dude.. u can see how ugly i am.. how fat i am from my friends uploads.. in fact most of ur friend knew me.. pg lah tgk page diorg..

meh lah sini aku tolong jawab kan..

"YES... BRAT MEMANG GUMOKS.."

"SO WHAT?? ADA MASALAH KE DENGAN SAYA?"

wakakaka lmao

p/s: don't hate me cause a big fat ugly gurl like me makes more friends than u do..atau anda rasa tergugat saya kenal most of ur friend dear?? dude wake up lah.. i'm fat.. i don't give a damn if people want to talk about my size or else behind my back..

i gave away a sincere friendship..terpulang lh kalau maseh ade yang making fun of me.. xde modal nak sembang kot diorg2 tu..wakakakak lmao

x guna berkawan kalau x ikhlas dan bermuka-muka....

Monday, August 24, 2009

10 sebab knapa sy x suka inchek...

10 things i hate about you


1 . i hate the way you talk to me and the way u cut your hair

2 . i hate the way you drive my car (i mean ur car)

3 . i hate it when you stare

4 . i hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind

5 . i hate you so much it makes me sick it even makes me run

6 . i hate the way you’re always right

7 . i hate it when you LIE

8 . i hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry

9 . i hate it when you’re not around and the fact that you didn’t call

10 . but mostly i hate the way i don’t hate you not even close... not even a little bit.. not even at all....

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

~ Happy Birthday to Yana Harmila~

this is from my buddy noghull..

thanx babes,,
though it's been a difficult time for me lately u're always there..
thanx for ur love and concern...
luy u babes...

29 !!~

HaPpy burfDay To me! :'(

happy kah aku?
sedey kah?
don't what to feel..
don't know what to do..
munchkin ..where r u...


[tq for everything (-_-')]

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

the worst day after 9 years...

from now on untill i recover...(again? which used to take 8 years before) u'll read my crappy mind translated in words..

The theme was "emotional dysfunction".. majoring in "broken hearted days before my birthday".. a perfect gift for an old lady like me huh? hahaha

earlier today i meant to write about something else.. but before i could actually write it, i get a major nerves breakdown due to my silliness... my intention to improve the relation that i'm into.. the gut i get of being honest and straight to the point was misunderstood i guess.. the good part was drown by the bad thing i did to get the prove... haha..and the other side was never want to sit back and discuss it over..

dear.. didn't i'm the one who supposed to get upset more than u do? why did u make this looks like i'm guiltier than u? ...

to be continue... the hand was too shaky to write...have to wipe out the bleed on my heart first i guess...huh..

wo ai ta.. sangat!
sangat upset!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

-bLanK-


SerabooT? just like me! haha
straight from camera.. too misearable to edit this!


Rendu...
to whom?
or to what?
can't tell!
not yet to be told!

miss the old days...
what about nowadays?
changed?
don't know!
seem like it!

Rendu lagi..
is it mutual?
wasn't it?
erk... it is dulu!
but now.. didn't know!



(-_-')
guo nian. xian sheng.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

18-55mm je


18-55mm je, originally uploaded by redcili.

me and ayie from azam..
i can't download this image so the only i can do is to blog this..huhu

selamat petang cikgu!!~



selamat petang cikgu, originally uploaded by redcili.

last friday..sangat buhsan..
i'm supposed to fetch dewi at pontian untill she called me up and cancel the original plan.. then she ring me up again ask me and z to wait for her at batu pahat.. as we changed our way she sent a sms and changed the plan again.. huh.. as we expected... hahaha

feeling frustrated i decided to have a unplanned visit to sawah sagil.. z has nothing to disagree with my suggestion.. she said once we escaped from the house let's make it worth it..wakakaka.. (that's my word actually..huhu)..

i ring ayie up asking permission from him to visit Sawah sagil... FIY Sawah sagil is under his territory...wakakakakaka.
as i arrived at the paddy field ayie was no where to be found.. so i decided to visit the old mango tree we used to hang out.. couple of minutes after that ayie came on his bike with his beloved D'nooty..
considering that azam live quite far from sawah sagil i didn't ask him to join us.. as this wasn't a well plan visit.. but ayie didn't think so.. he as azam to came along joining us that evening.. poor azam.. he had to ride couple miles just to accompany me decreasing my shutter release...hahaha i appreciated it though..

and here are some pix of me and z from azam n ayie lens...
thanx guys..


Tuesday, July 21, 2009

bOrN RaisEd & StrAp

bOrN RaisEd & StrAp, originally uploaded by redcili.

haha.. tHis is another masterpiece from azam the redcili..
the best ever..
i like...

Monday, July 20, 2009

I got the 'Power"??!!~ haha


power, originally uploaded by redcili.

after hanging around at Rakan Muda Karnival yesterday ayie, azam and I went to Pantai Perpat Laut for a Tag along with Jas & areteam.. i'm not in the mood of shooting the newly wed couple...

As azam playing around with my d40x + 70-300mm lens and i'm trying to finish up the film in my f55 we have this "i captured you...You captured me' situation... and this is from azam view and ideas.. he ask me to hold the bulb and told me to pose like and old lady as i'm holding the stick in my hand.. i've emailed him several image he wanted and he decided to come out with this one.. see how electromagnetic i am.. i can light up a bulb babes (^_^)/ LOL...wkaakkakak

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Wakenabeb!!~


DSC_0074, originally uploaded by eshazli.

adoi hai..
skali aku kena candid dah..

bila kamera suddah di tangan...
mood untuk menembak suddah mari..
aq x pernah amek tau apa yang berlaku di sekeliling..
x pernah nak amek tau people are looking at me and waiting for the perfect moment to candid me.. hahaha

this is what happen when i didn't alert of someone like eshazli while outing with my buddy...hahaha

Friday, July 17, 2009

me and the new member..


, originally uploaded by mnj545.

from MNJ's view.

saying hi to my flickr buddy sang pencinta ratu for the 1st time..
while hanging around with SPR and his friend zahira ...azman n zonedesign, MNJ pointing his lens on us.. as usual my 'tindakan refleks' ..jelir lidah...!!~ wakakakka

Group Photo Malacca Street Outing

group photo for saturday outing..
half of them are already went home.. this is the rest who stay..
thanx all for the fun time.. appreciate the knowledge and friendship gained..

looking forward to be with u guys again...huhu


pic cilok from huda pancit's flickr who cilok from eshazli's page..huhu

Black Parade


Black Parade, originally uploaded by m rizal.

this is from m_rizal view...
event: malacca outing..
date : July 11th 2009

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

aLLerGy.. oh ALLerGy..!!~




LasT saturday i went to the mall .. once i step into the mall and started to feel the freezing air condition.. my palm started to get itchy.I went there again yesterday i still face the same problem...this time my feet get itchy too...so i made up the conclusion..it is because the poor ventilation..

but today i started realising that my conclusion was totally wrong.. i bought an ice cream from a student (malaysian style ice cream).. once i hold the the ice cream my palm started to get itchy.. this time worse than before..i scratched & rub the palm until it become warmer.. the itchness is gone but the palm is getting a little bit swollen..and numb..

since i was a kid i rarely gone to the doctor ..unless i can't stand the pain.. so i ask my mom whom a nurse about my problem.. and she said

"tu nama nye allergy sejuk.."

i was like..

"what? allergy sejuk? boley plak ? ade gak penyakit tu eh?"

all i know is i do suffer from allergy but only to dust and some food...and not this 'allergy sejuk'.. yes, it's true .. i can't stand cold weather but never get itchy maa...i sit back and started to remember .."oh... now i remember..!" i do face this problem several time before... it's just become worse..

do i have to go for an official medical diagnosis?

p/s: a blanket or at least a jacket and a pair of socks is a must for me everytime i went to sleep.. huhu.. (plus watching Tv in the living room.. i hate it when my bro put on the aircond to the max..haha)

i spent over a hundred for books on a day..

Monday, June 15, 2009

maRi maKan Patin..

i just lurve ikan paTin...

seriously i didn't do cooking..
i'm sucks in cooking..
but today i manage to cook a set of 'masak lemak cili api ikan patin' & 'kailan Goreng' + 'Telur dadar'
and i'm surprised my brother ask me to add on some extra fish .... lapar sangat ke? (sorry bro.. letih suddah masak.. mau makan lagi goreng sendri then cebur je dlm itu kuah..wkakakak).




Sunday, June 14, 2009

Monday BLueS..!!!~


aku sangat malas mau kerja esok...

seriously i'm not in the mood to start working after about 2 weeks hanging around doing nothing..
2 weeks of holiday should be enough for me to refresh myself... but i never did..
true .. i'm not doing my official job..i'm resting from working... but my mind didn't...
it seem like my mind won't let my brain from taking the holiday...
i've been doing lots of thinking recently.. don't ask me what did i think about..
i didn't know how to answer that!!~
maybe i need a proper vacation where i spent my time alone peacefully in an island maybe?? haha


i'm counting days for the next school break...mwakakkaka..

My BuddieS anD I..!!~
-={LurvE Ya...}=-

Saturday, June 13, 2009

haPpy FatheR's day ..!!~

abah..
i never had the chance to
confess that i lurve you...
but i want u to know that i do..
happy father's day abah...


-[with lurve]-
uYa, aiSH, Uda, aBanG, Yan



P/s: to all the fathers and father's to be... happY father's day buddies !!!~..
{smuga jadi aYah YanG TerbaeK buat sahaBaT-sahabaT ku!!~}

p/p/s: sLamat hari bapa inchek... may aLL the happiness be with You!!~ (-_-')

Friday, June 12, 2009

Dedicated To.. [You Know who You aRE..!!~]

wake up and Figure out something..
don't let thing hanging just like that..
stop playing around.. you're not a teenager anymore..
you may not realized that someone is hurt because of u..
don't act like nothing goes wrong..
that's not good dear..
don't simply take everything as easy as ur abnormal life..
wake up and be normal...
people smiling at u doesn't meant they like u...
people laughing with u doesn't meant that they're laughing inside too..
they just wanna you to be happy..
don't just think of ur own self...
think of other people too..
wake up and try to change...!!~


p/s: May all The HappineSS be WiTh You...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

aRggGGggGHHHHH !!~


this is what happen when u have to do someone else work..
delay..delay... delay..
sangat x ikhlas..
and it'll end up by paying someone else to finish it up for u..hahaha




sorry areteam.. terpaksa susahkan ko.. aku sangat..sangat xde mood nak buat data entry ni..hehe
i'll pay u later ya..huhu

wasn't born to be a cook.!!~


i'm not a good homemaker..

i can't cook..
i can't clean up the house..
i can't even fold the clothes neatly..
i can't even manage myself..
how can i be a good homemaker?

*****************************************

it's been a week me and mom wasn't at home..
nothing much in the fridge to be cook..
it took a while before i decide to actually cook..
no fresh vegetable .. no meat or anything else other than couple of fishes..
it remind me how i survive in campus..
illegally bring my rice cooker, me and my friend cook lots of meal..
we cook tom yum.. mushroom soup... fried rice.. cekodok.. porridge..
we even cook mee hun soup with that rice cooker..

pengalaman... pengalaman....
rendu pulak kt ukm.. kt chermai college...
being a student surely teach me lot's of thing..




Kentang goreng.. sangat senang di masak with rice cooker..
in fact we don't need fridge to keep the potato isn't it? huhu


dip it with mayonaise or chili sauce.. nyum nyum..

so LittLe Time so MucH To Do...!!!~


I have Lot's of work to be done..
as usual.. i'm delaying my work... haha
i'm always like that...
whenever i got lots of works to be done.. i'm delaying...
what's the exact word huh?? Procrastinating??
whatever..
instead of finishing my works.. i'm blogging?? hahaha..



a day before my lips turn scary..huhu



playing with photoscapes

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

BaD mouth???

some people have allergy of their own...
some people allergy to shrimp paste..
some people allergy to dust..
some people allergy to sea food..
some people allergy to fruit..etc..
me?? i'm allergy to anything with shrimp paste...dust and this fruit called kuini..

my face get itchy whenever i ate anything with shrimp paste or whenever i'm in a space with lots of dust..

i get itchy lips whenever i ate kuini... and it's not just itchy.. it become like this....


scary huh??


but it wasn't caused by a kuini..i just knew it..... i keep thinking what did i eat that cause all this... but i found nothing... i didn't eat kuini lately... hurm... was it because that turkish candy my aunt gave to me? i don't know.. but i hate this... it's hurt.. and it's ugly to have that weird thing on ur lips... adoi lah....


this is my lip condition 3 days ago..

it's getting worse day by day... sakit oOo.. bila nak kering luka ni??!!~ arGhhhH

a Pack weeK - eNd??!!~





iT's a schooL holiDay.. everyone knew that.. what else can I do other than thinking hard where should i go spending my on.. (like i have much..huh)

since i didn't follow my mom to Bukit Tinggi.. I decided to drive mY abby to aMpang lpak2 with akak, my cousin.. furthermore i already promised my long time buddy Kamarul 'sLam' shahir & zaYana Zahira to hang out with them.. ask pacat, my '7 years younger than me' cousin to accompany me.. paid her a sum of money since she had to close her ABC stall for several days..she insist to drive her car.. i was like.."oh sure!!~" (driving her car mean i don't need to drive at all... YeaY!!~... i don't drive 'auto' maa).. though i know i have to double up the expenses by bringing pacat but still.. i don't have to drive..hahahaha...

Left Muar around 6-7 pm, on tuesday then arrived at ampang 2 and a half hour later.. 'Laju'?? hell yeah... but not as 'laju' as my abby performance (on the highway lah i meant...huhu).. don't go anywhere that nite since it's nite already..

The next day we went to sunway Piramid to done some window shopping and meet CT Tito,my buddy since matriculation.. but she didn't show up due to some miscommunication..hahaha... i need a new pair of shoe for outing.. decided to buy another sckechers or crocs lor but guess what?? i didn't know why it's hard to find size 7 for this 2 Label.. (normally i'm the easiest one to get suitable size for my feet..).. oh .. it's not hard to get maa.. it's "size 7 da habis.." then i ask for another design. it goes "pun da abis" the same answer i get to all design i choose.. i even ask for the ugliest design and still i get "size 8 ada lah.."... wTF... is not happening at sunway branch only maa... i get the same answer for Mid Valley outlet... huh.. told my cousin "aku rasa crocs n sckechers da x buat lah size 7"...wakakakka... I end up with no shoes in my shopping bag maa... Luckily i bought a pair of Dr Cardin sandal since my mom wear my old skechers to Bukit Tinggi before.. Looking for converse saja lah after this... (-_-'). shoes are out from the shopping list.. i need to find a wallet to replace the current one.. and i found what my eyes lurve to see... an army green united colours of benetton with genuine leather.. (i know.. it's not guess..mng or anything expensive lor..but still i can save half the price of a rm400 wallet by choosing this one...erk.. before less lor..huhu)

thanx goodness i met cik Na at mid valley utk lupakan seketika my frustration..mwahahaha... cik na looks like sheila rusly lah lately.. why ah? is it because she's a wartawan hiburan who full with gossip?? hahaha... promise cik na i'll buy her lunch but i'm too late to pay for her veggie..sorry cik na (sorry juga for didn't have the chnce to bring my abah 'satay goreng' hehe)..hehe.. sLam buy us dinner last nite.. (me, z and pacat).. i have to meet him course i've promised to test out his d90 (strong reason ka?..wakakka)... no lah.. i've to meet him because he's my best buddy lor.. even my mom n aunts knew him.. so it's kinda safe to go anywhere with him after this..hahaha.. (oh.. mak.. slam kem salam..)

i met cik na already.. slam..z.. bentayan degil + don firdaus (not in the plan... but thanx guys for the tips...huhu)... who else ya....(rewinding memories... scanning..scanning...) oh ya.. went to gurl's to visit her and he kids.. they are growing fast.. the last time i visit them irfan is like a new born who knows nothing... now? irfan is so chomey running here and there... climbing the chairs etc.... hehe.... who else did i met ya..oh no.. that's all.. itu saje yang sudi jumpa aku kah? haha.. (oh shoot.. i forgot to meet aisha asmir & mamat sh4rp...adoi abis lah jd bahan..)

now u know why did i always in KL? i've friends there lor.. next holiday i'm planning for ... where else Penang + utara lor... my fave place..huhu.. have my northern brothers there...

Heading back to Muar, johor, saTurday 6 am in the morning...planning to change the car then heading to Kempas, johor for our parent's cousin wedding at first.. un fortunately my car battery was totally kong maa.. (can't even unlock the alarm..) we have to do what we have to do first lah.. need to change battery with pacat's car to start the engine.. went to workshop to changed pacat's fused since my very clever cousin, jeman suddah salah pasang cable battery maa.. then we heading to pagoh to park pacat's car at our uncle's house and drive fast & furiously (i'm driving lah) to kempas.. by the time we arrived at pagoh.. the other group was like already in machap area... we are about 20-30 minutes behind them.. but we managed to catch them up at kempas higway exit (of course they need to wait a little bit lah... not more than 15 minute i guess..enough for their w.c stop..huhu)

the next day i need to pick mum up at malacca and went back home.. Muar - Rengit was only about 2 and a half hours journey but i need to stop twice one for fuel stop and the 2nd one was for refreshment.. i was too sleepy to drive but i need to drive since mom was surrender from driving already.. she had a very long journey from bukit tinggi - Dumai and she need her rest.. (macam lah mak nk drive my car..ceh).. the main reason that we have to get back home that night was because both of us were working on monday..wakakakak... Letih oOOoo..

Don Firdaus - Thanx for The eDiting tips

HusnY 'BenTayan' Rizal - Thanx sebab ajak lpak2..huhu


Gurl's Precious... [Imran, sYarmin & iRfan]


Cik Puan ZaYana ZahiRa Isa


En KamaRuL 'SLamDunk' ShahiR Karim..


On the way To Gurl's place..


I'm in such a hurry.. Diorg sebuk2 nak amek gambar..huh


The Cam wHorers cousin... huhu


slam witH His D NooTY [eh tu ayie nyer..hehe]

A pReGger need Lots oF Folic Acid Lor..



p/s: sorry u have to read my rambling..huhu

Monday, June 8, 2009

HeadaChe oh heaDacHe..!!~

Responding to Miss ClueLess FiLa's bLog...!!~



weird huh??
they said coffee & migraine Can't get along..
but why did this article stated that coffee (dust) + lime can cure headache?
it taste good too..
even korean lurve this drink..(seen in korean movie lor..huhu)

p/s: i get the wrong idea all this time... i've been drinking ice lime coffee everytime i got headache...(purposely actually since i don't drink hot beverages..hoho)
plus i replace the lime with 'limau kasturi'..huhu

Friday, June 5, 2009

aKoE seDeY..!!~

don't know why..
out of nowhere i'm a little bit sad lately.. i guess...
my heart is crying out.... the tears try to get out but i prevent it so hard from falling ..
the expression are unpredictable..
one minute i came out with a happy face....
one minute later i was like eating 100Kg of tamarind...
another minute i was like no emotion...
don't know what am I thinking but i'm sure i don't like those feeling...
feel like crying but forcing myself not to...
kinda tired from having those feeling.. it makes me looks stupid...
give me haedache that force me to take paracetamol to reduce it....
but still i don't know what to do..




Tuesday, June 2, 2009

what would u do when u have to wait??

Answer??


CamwHorinG lah.. what else do u expect when u only have ur HP and ur camera with u... no books or magz to be read maa....huhu




wondering what i'm waiting for...?


This is what i'm waiting at... (Lama giler nk berlepas..)


why??


This is why... mummy is leaving us for the whole week!!~ :'(


WheRE?



THere.. but not jusT there... she's going to PadanG...


With whoM?


Them... minus those 2 young lady in bLack... (they just lurve interframing..huhu)


and This me and MoM...