remove me!!!~

it's been 3 weeks after i'm having tonsillectomy.... and thank to Allah there's not much problem i'm having...

Terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati...

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau aku tersungkur lagi..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau aku tak mampu berpura2..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau aku terpaksa berlakon demi menjaga kehormatan nya..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau lakonan ku di salah erti..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau aku di tuduh bersetongkol..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau dia tidak mempercayai ku lagi..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau dia menjauhkan diri..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau dia meminta ku utk tidak mencari nya lagi..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau aku terjatuh dan terduduk di saat aku perlukan segala penguat semangat yang ada untuk kembali pulih..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau aku menangis lagi..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau aku musnah kembali..

terima kaseh kepada keikhlasan dan ketulusan hati kerana engkau hati ku mati..!!~

kerana ikhlas dan tulus nya hati ku kini aku kembali saket....sangat saket!

telah ku cuba seikhlas mungkin menerima nya.. setulus mungkin kepadanya namun aku tetap terluka.... telah ku cuba menutup cela nya.. tapi aku di tuduh bersetongkol... aku keliru... aku jatuh lagi setelah di bangkitkan oleh nya... kini aku tidak mungkin bisa bangkit lagi... biarlah hatiku mati di sini... mati bersama chenta yang pernah singgah membahagiakan diri ini...

smuga bahagia mengiringi kehidupan nya....

Life is an aRT..!!~

me and my coLours of Life...!!~

cLick HeRE to view my CoLours...

-bRaT-

pengesahan dalam perkhidmatan....

that's been written on the letter i accepted from the office...

with a smile on my face.. i announced proudly "jyyeaaHHh dah sah jawatan...da bley lawan boss" wakakakkaka...

my colleague continue. " dakwat dAh kering weh.." ...

meaning there's no need to put my face down when facing boss..huhu.. i can speak out loud now.. i can speak up my opinion,... i can further my study.. and i can....... being transfered!.. huh daymn!

"BERKHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA"

Yana Harmila Haron.

huhu.....

"One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love"

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With you I see forever Oh, so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know

They'll take us where we want to go

Hold me now

Touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You oughta know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You oughta know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy

Our love will lead the way for us

Like a guiding star

I'll be there for you if you should need me

You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help you see forever too

Hold me now

Touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You oughta know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You oughta know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

i want nobody but You baby..!!~

You Know I still Love You Baby.

And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You

How can I be with another, I don't want any other

I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya

I know what you're thinking

Baby why aren't you listening

How can I just

Just love someone else and

Forget you completely

When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough

My life with you is just too tough

You know it's not right so

Just stop and come back boy

How can this be

When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You

How can I be with another, I don't want any other

I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You

How can I be with another, I don't want any other

I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can't we just, just be like this

Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end

Who else can ever make me feel the way I

I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you're not good enough

My life with you is just too tough

You know me enough so

You know what I need boy

Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You

How can I be with another, I don't want any other

I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You

How can I be with another, I don't want any other

I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want no body, body

I don't want no body, body

Honey you know it's you that I want, it's you that I need

Why can't you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You

How can I be with another, I don't want any other

I want nobody nobody nobody nobody (2x)

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free

Nothing else matters other than you and me

So tell me why can't it be

Please let me live my life my way

Why do you push me away

I don't want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you.

sayu...

sayu bila memandang nya..

sayu bila mengenang nya..

sayu bila memikirkannya..

sayu bila ku tahu itu semua salah ku...

maafkan ku..

BungKam...!!!~

i'm so damN f**king sad!

am i supposed to be happy..?

am i supposed to sad?

start my day with something that wasn't supposed to be happen.... then berturusan dan berjangkit-jangkitan sehari-harian... i'm not happy..

aku menyusahkan banyak org arini...

aku buat orang kelam kabut..

aku buat my family bengang..

aku penyebab semua plan bertukar dan brubah..

aku sangat sedey...

aku sangat tidak enjoy trip ke indonesia kali ni..

aku nekad utk mendiamkan diri.. tp aku end up acting normal.. pada hal dalam hati aku sangat tidak tenteram.. sangat celaru.. sangat tidak tau nak rasa apa... am i supposed to be sad atas kegembiraan orang lain... atau am i supposed to act happy atas kesediahan hati aku?

satu hari ni.. hati rasa macam di genggan dengan kuat... sangat sesak dan sangat memeritkan...

daymn aku sangat sedey... serius ni sangat sangat pedih rasa nya,... kalau bley nangis lama dah aku nangi.. akekekek...

arghhh aku merapu lagik.. out!

on the move..!!~ again..??

after bali ... mersing.. KL... now i'm off to Klantan and trengganu .... hahaha

with couple of rm50 notes i'm off for another trip.. but this time.. shopping is out of my list lor..

couple of rm50 notes aren't enough for me to do shopping..huk..

the worse part is..... i'm officially broke.. daymNN... where the heck can i get instant cash for bandung/jakarta trip...?? can't ask my mom for 'buat ada-ada' money this time.. coz mom herself will be joining the trip and so do my 2 youngest bro n sis... which officially meant that... "you're on ur own Yana HarmiLa!!~" daYmMNnnnnn again...!!~

i already counting my coins .. and still figure out where the heck i'm gonna trade this coins into rm notes.. at least there will be another 2 extra rm50 notes in my wallet..huhu

pathetic isn't it...??

but i don't care... i wanna go jalan-jalan puas-puas tahun ni.. don't know why.. but i think i can smell next year will be a difficult year for me... huh...

derita Merindu - AhLi FiQr...

enjoy each and every word...... (-_-')

LIRIK:
(Rap)
Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x)
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap)
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..
Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

so sweeT... who said caNon and NikoN can't be together??!!~

This is a story from not long ago
about a boy and a girl who fell in love like whoa
but there was a problem I didn't count on
the fact I was a Canon and she was a Nikon

The photo community was too far gone
they couldnt appreciate what we had goin' on
we had similar features, made similar pictures
we really weren't that different but they still couldn't see

I auto focused on her sexy body
buttons to push didn't know where to get started
I never thought I'd fall for a D200
but she was so hot, she was all that I wanted

[Chorus]
My 1DS mark III
felt more complete
when we were together she said my shots were so unique

But soon you'll see
we could never be
like Romeo and Juliette
our families disagreed

Ohh Ahh Polish my lens girl
oooahh polish my lens girl
ohh-ahh polish my lens girl
dont leave a thumb print on that lense girl

The two sides always at war
all across the message boards
Dpchallenge what the fuck yo
they could never let go
of the hate no thats for 'sho
the Nikon gang whooped my ass and made me go

The 70-200 in my pants wouldnt fit inside her Nikon body
made me wear a UV-filter, which I'm against, but shes my shawtay
Mount her on my tripod and screw her on and off and on again
make her take my picture and say I'm the best thats ever been

[Chorus]

Cause I'm a Canon gangsta and your a Nikon shawtay
I wanna take a picture of that rockin bootay

We couldnt keep the act up we just had to face the facts
but hey look on the bright side at least we're not a Pentax

Lalalalala.........!!!~ [tiada rahsia di BaLi...!!~]

it's been a quite some times since i last rambling here..
sangat tdak ade mood utk merapu..

it's a school holiday now.. and it's already started with a short visit to sg congkak for a photo-gathering a day before a wonderful holiday trip to bali with my sepang heroes... i'm thinking of start rambling again.. i'll try to spend couple of minutes rambling before signing in my facebook and yahoo messenger... (said "i'll try"... try meant "cuba" ok??..huhuh)

Last week i when for a trip to the wonderful island of Bali with my sepang heroes, Joe, Amin, Arul, Helmi and FadhiL (well fadhil is not exactly a sepang heroes but he can be anything babes.. a barong and hanuman also can..huhu).. it's my 1st time meeting helmi and arul but they're cool... seems like all of us been a close friends for ages although we're only meet up for couple of times..sangat bley masuk kepala... the trip can be categorized as a succesful trip since everyone seems satisfied with the well-plan iteanary...(credit for my aunt who get us the best tourist guide in Bali...i guess..hehe)..

i when to Bali with the intention to have fun.. unlike my sepang heroes... they when there for photo hunt!...so i don't give a damn of getting the best photo i could actually get there.. with one unit of my lovely munchkin, nikon attach to 18-55 f3.5-5.6 and 70-300 f4-5.6 as standby and a unit of canon 1D mk II (a generous someone lend me this unit and i need to explore it in 4 days) attached to 15mm fish eye and 24-70 f2.8 waiting to be use... i produced a rubbish... everyone even mom, b and aunts said that my pix are rubbish... they put a higher expectation on me... but all they see are rubbish... feeling frustrated with myself.. i put away my external harddisk and start grabbing a novel that i haven't finish reading since last year..hahaha.. untill the time i'm writing this article.. i haven't even finish reading one page..haha.. i open up the novel..then close it.. i stare at my external hdd.. thinking of uploading my pix... then i lost interest...i'm browsing my facebook... then i ignoring it... daymnnn i really started to feel the frustration... if only i could turn back time .. i probably gonna capture as much pix i could with my munchkin... my tiny d40x.. feel bad ..really bad.. coz that generous someone lend me his camera and expecting an eye-catching pix from his 1D mk II... all i gave him was a rubbish.. i wasted his shutter released for nothing.. sgt teruk kan?? i even drop his battery pack.. x psal2 cacat battery beliau.. i'm sucks!!~

i hope i could do better in jakarta-bandung this 18-21 dec.. (got a family trip there with mom, aish and uya + aunts and cousins...) i'll try to capture better pix there lor...but............ bandung is a shopping heaven....i wanna go shopping lor....how come?? shopping and photo-hunt can't mix lor..huhu..owh forgot... i suddah sengkek.. cannot go shopping anymore :'( ....

before bandung-jakarta trip there will be a mersing holiday gathering with my ippm bff.. and a klantan - trengganu trip sponsored by my school..(sponsor tambang je pun..yang laen sendri gak...huh).. harap2 smua plan jadik lah.. aiyo.. i need lots of money right now..!!!~ any ideas of getting an instant money??? urgent reply needed!!~ hahaha..


extra note :

today i get a surprise visit from someone.. i thought it's was a joke when he said he's coming to have lunch with me.. so i'm ignoring him.. by the time i'm buying his invitation he's already waiting in front of my house... poor him, he need to wait more than half an hours (i guess) for me to have shower and getting ready..wkakakaka..amaran keras to all my friends.. len kali x yah lah surprise2 kalau xmo menunggu... hahaha.. thanx babes for the lunch..!


p/s: napa aq rasa rapuan aku kali berterabur??? hahaha

what the heck..[notes from my facebook]

masih ade kah diskriminasi size zaman skang ni?

stupid..!

i don't give a damn about me being fat as long as i am healthy.. but this kinda question i rarely heard lah..it's kinda funny too..

yesterday my friend got this question from his friend

"Brat tu gemok ke?"

sentap kawan aku dgr soalan dr kawn dia yang x knal aku tu.. is that a polite question to ask about a person who u didn't really know? mcam da xde soalan lain jer nak intro tanya pasal aku...macam tanya org tengah basuh keta

"tengah watpe tu? basuh keta ke?"

aku yang terang2 gumok ni dia bley tanya size aku? hello.. go do some research lah if u want to know about me.. my pix is everywhere lah dude.. u can see how ugly i am.. how fat i am from my friends uploads.. in fact most of ur friend knew me.. pg lah tgk page diorg..

meh lah sini aku tolong jawab kan..

"YES... BRAT MEMANG GUMOKS.."

"SO WHAT?? ADA MASALAH KE DENGAN SAYA?"

wakakaka lmao

p/s: don't hate me cause a big fat ugly gurl like me makes more friends than u do..atau anda rasa tergugat saya kenal most of ur friend dear?? dude wake up lah.. i'm fat.. i don't give a damn if people want to talk about my size or else behind my back..

i gave away a sincere friendship..terpulang lh kalau maseh ade yang making fun of me.. xde modal nak sembang kot diorg2 tu..wakakakak lmao

x guna berkawan kalau x ikhlas dan bermuka-muka....

10 sebab knapa sy x suka inchek...

10 things i hate about you

1 . i hate the way you talk to me and the way u cut your hair

2 . i hate the way you drive my car (i mean ur car)

3 . i hate it when you stare

4 . i hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind

5 . i hate you so much it makes me sick it even makes me run

6 . i hate the way you’re always right

7 . i hate it when you LIE

8 . i hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry

9 . i hate it when you’re not around and the fact that you didn’t call

10 . but mostly i hate the way i don’t hate you not even close... not even a little bit.. not even at all....

~ Happy Birthday to Yana Harmila~

~ Happy Birthday to Yana Harmila~, originally uploaded by huda mamat.

this is from my buddy noghull..

thanx babes,,
though it's been a difficult time for me lately u're always there..
thanx for ur love and concern...
luy u babes...

29 !!~

HaPpy burfDay To me! :'(

happy kah aku?
sedey kah?
don't what to feel..
don't know what to do..
munchkin ..where r u...


[tq for everything (-_-')]

the worst day after 9 years...

from now on untill i recover...(again? which used to take 8 years before) u'll read my crappy mind translated in words..

The theme was "emotional dysfunction".. majoring in "broken hearted days before my birthday".. a perfect gift for an old lady like me huh? hahaha

earlier today i meant to write about something else.. but before i could actually write it, i get a major nerves breakdown due to my silliness... my intention to improve the relation that i'm into.. the gut i get of being honest and straight to the point was misunderstood i guess.. the good part was drown by the bad thing i did to get the prove... haha..and the other side was never want to sit back and discuss it over..

dear.. didn't i'm the one who supposed to get upset more than u do? why did u make this looks like i'm guiltier than u? ...

to be continue... the hand was too shaky to write...have to wipe out the bleed on my heart first i guess...huh..

wo ai ta.. sangat!
sangat upset!

-bLanK-

SerabooT? just like me! haha
straight from camera.. too misearable to edit this!

Rendu...
to whom?
or to what?
can't tell!
not yet to be told!

miss the old days...
what about nowadays?
changed?
don't know!
seem like it!

Rendu lagi..
is it mutual?
wasn't it?
erk... it is dulu!
but now.. didn't know!



(-_-')
guo nian. xian sheng.

18-55mm je

18-55mm je, originally uploaded by redcili.

me and ayie from azam..
i can't download this image so the only i can do is to blog this..huhu

selamat petang cikgu!!~

selamat petang cikgu, originally uploaded by redcili.

last friday..sangat buhsan..
i'm supposed to fetch dewi at pontian untill she called me up and cancel the original plan.. then she ring me up again ask me and z to wait for her at batu pahat.. as we changed our way she sent a sms and changed the plan again.. huh.. as we expected... hahaha

feeling frustrated i decided to have a unplanned visit to sawah sagil.. z has nothing to disagree with my suggestion.. she said once we escaped from the house let's make it worth it..wakakaka.. (that's my word actually..huhu)..

i ring ayie up asking permission from him to visit Sawah sagil... FIY Sawah sagil is under his territory...wakakakakaka.
as i arrived at the paddy field ayie was no where to be found.. so i decided to visit the old mango tree we used to hang out.. couple of minutes after that ayie came on his bike with his beloved D'nooty..
considering that azam live quite far from sawah sagil i didn't ask him to join us.. as this wasn't a well plan visit.. but ayie didn't think so.. he as azam to came along joining us that evening.. poor azam.. he had to ride couple miles just to accompany me decreasing my shutter release...hahaha i appreciated it though..

and here are some pix of me and z from azam n ayie lens...
thanx guys..

bOrN RaisEd & StrAp

bOrN RaisEd & StrAp, originally uploaded by redcili.

haha.. tHis is another masterpiece from azam the redcili..
the best ever..
i like...

I got the 'Power"??!!~ haha

power, originally uploaded by redcili.

after hanging around at Rakan Muda Karnival yesterday ayie, azam and I went to Pantai Perpat Laut for a Tag along with Jas & areteam.. i'm not in the mood of shooting the newly wed couple...

As azam playing around with my d40x + 70-300mm lens and i'm trying to finish up the film in my f55 we have this "i captured you...You captured me' situation... and this is from azam view and ideas.. he ask me to hold the bulb and told me to pose like and old lady as i'm holding the stick in my hand.. i've emailed him several image he wanted and he decided to come out with this one.. see how electromagnetic i am.. i can light up a bulb babes (^_^)/ LOL...wkaakkakak

Wakenabeb!!~

DSC_0074, originally uploaded by eshazli.

adoi hai..
skali aku kena candid dah..

bila kamera suddah di tangan...
mood untuk menembak suddah mari..
aq x pernah amek tau apa yang berlaku di sekeliling..
x pernah nak amek tau people are looking at me and waiting for the perfect moment to candid me.. hahaha

this is what happen when i didn't alert of someone like eshazli while outing with my buddy...hahaha

me and the new member..

, originally uploaded by mnj545.

from MNJ's view.

saying hi to my flickr buddy sang pencinta ratu for the 1st time..
while hanging around with SPR and his friend zahira ...azman n zonedesign, MNJ pointing his lens on us.. as usual my 'tindakan refleks' ..jelir lidah...!!~ wakakakka

Group Photo Malacca Street Outing

Group Photo Malacca Street Outing (sila tag diri anda), originally uploaded by beskal.pancit.

group photo for saturday outing..
half of them are already went home.. this is the rest who stay..
thanx all for the fun time.. appreciate the knowledge and friendship gained..

looking forward to be with u guys again...huhu


pic cilok from huda pancit's flickr who cilok from eshazli's page..huhu

Black Parade

Black Parade, originally uploaded by m rizal.

this is from m_rizal view...
event: malacca outing..
date : July 11th 2009

aLLerGy.. oh ALLerGy..!!~

LasT saturday i went to the mall .. once i step into the mall and started to feel the freezing air condition.. my palm started to get itchy.I went there again yesterday i still face the same problem...this time my feet get itchy too...so i made up the conclusion..it is because the poor ventilation..

but today i started realising that my conclusion was totally wrong.. i bought an ice cream from a student (malaysian style ice cream).. once i hold the the ice cream my palm started to get itchy.. this time worse than before..i scratched & rub the palm until it become warmer.. the itchness is gone but the palm is getting a little bit swollen..and numb..

since i was a kid i rarely gone to the doctor ..unless i can't stand the pain.. so i ask my mom whom a nurse about my problem.. and she said

"tu nama nye allergy sejuk.."

i was like..

"what? allergy sejuk? boley plak ? ade gak penyakit tu eh?"

all i know is i do suffer from allergy but only to dust and some food...and not this 'allergy sejuk'.. yes, it's true .. i can't stand cold weather but never get itchy maa...i sit back and started to remember .."oh... now i remember..!" i do face this problem several time before... it's just become worse..

do i have to go for an official medical diagnosis?

p/s: a blanket or at least a jacket and a pair of socks is a must for me everytime i went to sleep.. huhu.. (plus watching Tv in the living room.. i hate it when my bro put on the aircond to the max..haha)

i spent over a hundred for books on a day..

maRi maKan Patin..

i just lurve ikan paTin...

seriously i didn't do cooking..
i'm sucks in cooking..
but today i manage to cook a set of 'masak lemak cili api ikan patin' & 'kailan Goreng' + 'Telur dadar'
and i'm surprised my brother ask me to add on some extra fish .... lapar sangat ke? (sorry bro.. letih suddah masak.. mau makan lagi goreng sendri then cebur je dlm itu kuah..wkakakak).

Monday BLueS..!!!~

aku sangat malas mau kerja esok...

seriously i'm not in the mood to start working after about 2 weeks hanging around doing nothing..
2 weeks of holiday should be enough for me to refresh myself... but i never did..
true .. i'm not doing my official job..i'm resting from working... but my mind didn't...
it seem like my mind won't let my brain from taking the holiday...
i've been doing lots of thinking recently.. don't ask me what did i think about..
i didn't know how to answer that!!~
maybe i need a proper vacation where i spent my time alone peacefully in an island maybe?? haha


i'm counting days for the next school break...mwakakkaka..

My BuddieS anD I..!!~
-={LurvE Ya...}=-

haPpy FatheR's day ..!!~

abah..
i never had the chance to
confess that i lurve you...
but i want u to know that i do..
happy father's day abah...

-[with lurve]-
uYa, aiSH, Uda, aBanG, Yan



P/s: to all the fathers and father's to be... happY father's day buddies !!!~..
{smuga jadi aYah YanG TerbaeK buat sahaBaT-sahabaT ku!!~}

p/p/s: sLamat hari bapa inchek... may aLL the happiness be with You!!~ (-_-')

Dedicated To.. [You Know who You aRE..!!~]

wake up and Figure out something..
don't let thing hanging just like that..
stop playing around.. you're not a teenager anymore..
you may not realized that someone is hurt because of u..
don't act like nothing goes wrong..
that's not good dear..
don't simply take everything as easy as ur abnormal life..
wake up and be normal...
people smiling at u doesn't meant they like u...
people laughing with u doesn't meant that they're laughing inside too..
they just wanna you to be happy..
don't just think of ur own self...
think of other people too..
wake up and try to change...!!~


p/s: May all The HappineSS be WiTh You...

aRggGGggGHHHHH !!~

this is what happen when u have to do someone else work..
delay..delay... delay..
sangat x ikhlas..
and it'll end up by paying someone else to finish it up for u..hahaha




sorry areteam.. terpaksa susahkan ko.. aku sangat..sangat xde mood nak buat data entry ni..hehe
i'll pay u later ya..huhu

wasn't born to be a cook.!!~

i'm not a good homemaker..

i can't cook..
i can't clean up the house..
i can't even fold the clothes neatly..
i can't even manage myself..
how can i be a good homemaker?

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it's been a week me and mom wasn't at home..
nothing much in the fridge to be cook..
it took a while before i decide to actually cook..
no fresh vegetable .. no meat or anything else other than couple of fishes..
it remind me how i survive in campus..
illegally bring my rice cooker, me and my friend cook lots of meal..
we cook tom yum.. mushroom soup... fried rice.. cekodok.. porridge..
we even cook mee hun soup with that rice cooker..

pengalaman... pengalaman....
rendu pulak kt ukm.. kt chermai college...
being a student surely teach me lot's of thing..

Kentang goreng.. sangat senang di masak with rice cooker..
in fact we don't need fridge to keep the potato isn't it? huhu

dip it with mayonaise or chili sauce.. nyum nyum..

so LittLe Time so MucH To Do...!!!~

I have Lot's of work to be done..
as usual.. i'm delaying my work... haha
i'm always like that...
whenever i got lots of works to be done.. i'm delaying...
what's the exact word huh?? Procrastinating??
whatever..
instead of finishing my works.. i'm blogging?? hahaha..

a day before my lips turn scary..huhu

playing with photoscapes

BaD mouth???

some people have allergy of their own...
some people allergy to shrimp paste..
some people allergy to dust..
some people allergy to sea food..
some people allergy to fruit..etc..
me?? i'm allergy to anything with shrimp paste...dust and this fruit called kuini..

my face get itchy whenever i ate anything with shrimp paste or whenever i'm in a space with lots of dust..

i get itchy lips whenever i ate kuini... and it's not just itchy.. it become like this....

scary huh??

but it wasn't caused by a kuini..i just knew it..... i keep thinking what did i eat that cause all this... but i found nothing... i didn't eat kuini lately... hurm... was it because that turkish candy my aunt gave to me? i don't know.. but i hate this... it's hurt.. and it's ugly to have that weird thing on ur lips... adoi lah....

this is my lip condition 3 days ago..

it's getting worse day by day... sakit oOo.. bila nak kering luka ni??!!~ arGhhhH