sayu...

sayu bila memandang nya..

sayu bila mengenang nya..

sayu bila memikirkannya..

sayu bila ku tahu itu semua salah ku...

maafkan ku..

BungKam...!!!~

i'm so damN f**king sad!

am i supposed to be happy..?

am i supposed to sad?

start my day with something that wasn't supposed to be happen.... then berturusan dan berjangkit-jangkitan sehari-harian... i'm not happy..

aku menyusahkan banyak org arini...

aku buat orang kelam kabut..

aku buat my family bengang..

aku penyebab semua plan bertukar dan brubah..

aku sangat sedey...

aku sangat tidak enjoy trip ke indonesia kali ni..

aku nekad utk mendiamkan diri.. tp aku end up acting normal.. pada hal dalam hati aku sangat tidak tenteram.. sangat celaru.. sangat tidak tau nak rasa apa... am i supposed to be sad atas kegembiraan orang lain... atau am i supposed to act happy atas kesediahan hati aku?

satu hari ni.. hati rasa macam di genggan dengan kuat... sangat sesak dan sangat memeritkan...

daymn aku sangat sedey... serius ni sangat sangat pedih rasa nya,... kalau bley nangis lama dah aku nangi.. akekekek...

arghhh aku merapu lagik.. out!

on the move..!!~ again..??

after bali ... mersing.. KL... now i'm off to Klantan and trengganu .... hahaha

with couple of rm50 notes i'm off for another trip.. but this time.. shopping is out of my list lor..

couple of rm50 notes aren't enough for me to do shopping..huk..

the worse part is..... i'm officially broke.. daymNN... where the heck can i get instant cash for bandung/jakarta trip...?? can't ask my mom for 'buat ada-ada' money this time.. coz mom herself will be joining the trip and so do my 2 youngest bro n sis... which officially meant that... "you're on ur own Yana HarmiLa!!~" daYmMNnnnnn again...!!~

i already counting my coins .. and still figure out where the heck i'm gonna trade this coins into rm notes.. at least there will be another 2 extra rm50 notes in my wallet..huhu

pathetic isn't it...??

but i don't care... i wanna go jalan-jalan puas-puas tahun ni.. don't know why.. but i think i can smell next year will be a difficult year for me... huh...

derita Merindu - AhLi FiQr...

enjoy each and every word...... (-_-')

LIRIK:
(Rap)
Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x)
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap)
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..
Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

so sweeT... who said caNon and NikoN can't be together??!!~

This is a story from not long ago
about a boy and a girl who fell in love like whoa
but there was a problem I didn't count on
the fact I was a Canon and she was a Nikon

The photo community was too far gone
they couldnt appreciate what we had goin' on
we had similar features, made similar pictures
we really weren't that different but they still couldn't see

I auto focused on her sexy body
buttons to push didn't know where to get started
I never thought I'd fall for a D200
but she was so hot, she was all that I wanted

[Chorus]
My 1DS mark III
felt more complete
when we were together she said my shots were so unique

But soon you'll see
we could never be
like Romeo and Juliette
our families disagreed

Ohh Ahh Polish my lens girl
oooahh polish my lens girl
ohh-ahh polish my lens girl
dont leave a thumb print on that lense girl

The two sides always at war
all across the message boards
Dpchallenge what the fuck yo
they could never let go
of the hate no thats for 'sho
the Nikon gang whooped my ass and made me go

The 70-200 in my pants wouldnt fit inside her Nikon body
made me wear a UV-filter, which I'm against, but shes my shawtay
Mount her on my tripod and screw her on and off and on again
make her take my picture and say I'm the best thats ever been

[Chorus]

Cause I'm a Canon gangsta and your a Nikon shawtay
I wanna take a picture of that rockin bootay

We couldnt keep the act up we just had to face the facts
but hey look on the bright side at least we're not a Pentax