sometimes...everytime!!~

everytime i think of myself i found that i'm still didn't have any ideas in which direction my life is heading..

sometimes i think i'm ready to begin a new life...
sometimes i think i'm just not that ready yet...
sometimes i think i need an inspiration...
sometimes i think my inspiration is my journey on life and friends...
sometimes i think sharing life would be interesting...
sometimes i think sharing life would be difficult..

sometimes i think it would be great to find someone to share a life myself...

sometimes i think i wouldn't be able to find my companian by my own..

sometimes i think it would be easy to say "ok mom, go ahead..i'll be ready to accept anyone u choose"
sometimes i think i'm just giving excuses because i'm afraid to change...
sometimes i think my heart scream "oh freak..don't ask me..just go ahead and do your thing!!~" i'll be a good daughter of yours...
sometimes i think " oh no...not again.. i need someone with the same interest mom!!~"

but everytime i keep thinking my mind got stuck somewhere between my medula oblongata or serebrum or whatever...!!~

confusion strike back!!~

kadang-kadang kita terlalu bangga dengan diri kita..
kadang-kadang kita lupa yang kita hanyalah kita..
kadang-kadang kita tidak perlu berpura-pura..
kadang-kadang kita harus berusaha...

tapi itulah kita...hanya menanti apa yang tak kujung tiba!!~